meaning of living Sunday, October 12, 2008


argh! this is an entry of desperateness.

i just dun see the meaning of living on this earth anymore.
it sounds weird. but it makes sense.
i dun see wad can make me continue living on this earth or wad else is memorable over here.

frens? family? passion? studies?
definitely not studies.
studying sucks.
sometimes i just hope i can stop studying and GET OUT OF SCH.
i just wanna do sth i wanna do.
i have big dreams. I DO. dun say i dun.
but i just needa courage. i need lots of it.
but it's just not realistic. is this wad u mean by ambitions dun always work out thks to the HARSH reality?
can i stop studying? can i dun have a degree? can i just do wad i like to do?
maybe pple will say i will spend my whole day playing snooker or pool.
maybe? it gives me confidence. shows me who i am. but i wanna do sth big to prove myself to myself. not to anyone.

frens?
frens? frens? frens?
yea. i have frens. i am not exactly anti social.
but sometimes, i just think i dun deserve the irrespect pple give me.
frens are frens. close frens are close frens.
i have my close frens. i cherish them. i dun raise objections or show anger normally.
but i have my temper. maybe one day i will die of bottling them up.
oh well. anyway i really feel disappearing frm this world is better.
maybe where mummy's is IS better?
frens. i am confused with the definition of frens.
frens are pple who r there when u need them most.
yea. i have pple who r there for me. thk u. =)

passion. snooker pool?
wad is passion when u keep ruining it urself
when u are not ur best?
passion = u r happy when u are at it.
yea. i am happy when i play snooker or pool.
but i dun like myself when i am playing snooker or pool
maybe cos it reveals too much of myself.
or maybe i have hidden too much.
i am a bitch when i reveal EVERYTHING.
u'll just nvr wanna know.

family? maybe it's the only thing tt i am continue living on this earth.

i am just sick of everything. can't the world be nicer? or maybe some shld say. maybe mel shld grow up. THIS IS THE REAL WORLD. COME ON! FACE IT! ok then
WHATEVER!


signing off
12:18 PM

~IT'SMYLIFE!~
MEL MEL KONG!!
`26/8/88
`Poi Ching School : 1-3G, 4E, 5-6A
`Presbyterian High School : 1-4ENDURANCE
`Nanyang Junior College : 05S10B
`CHOIR


~LOVELOVELOVE!~
`SNOOKER PASSION
`SLPING
`slack
`fam and friends


~WANTS!!!~
`jus to be happy
`simple life
`u! =)
`be with fam and friends!


~THETALK!~
let's talk rubbishhhhhhh!


~DARLINKIES!~
`jiahui
`joyceeee
`phebo
`hannah
`wendyy
`wei lin
`piggy seow
`sushi
`lisan
`elmo
`franson
`jeanie
`kai bin
`TP
`edmund
`Qinqi
`peizhi
`yisin
`ritz`gareen
HISTORY!
April 2007
May 2007
June 2007
July 2007
August 2007
September 2007
October 2007
November 2007
December 2007
January 2008
February 2008
March 2008
April 2008
May 2008
June 2008
July 2008
August 2008
September 2008
October 2008
November 2008
December 2008
January 2009
April 2009
September 2009
October 2009
November 2009
December 2009
January 2010
February 2010
May 2010
June 2010
July 2010
March 2012
May 2016


%HAVEAGOODDAY!
DESIGNER kathleen
CODES tere
IMAGES nabhan
HOST