mel mel's BLAH BLAH land

yes yes yes!! guess waddddd!! I AM FREE! hahaas...
how does it seems tt this period is MUCH MUCH MUCH WORST than As?
why is tt so??? i tot uni was supposed to be the slackest of all?!
or it is cos i slacked too much. LOL.

wadever! ANYWAY I AM FREE!
first day of enjoying freedom!!
going movies with sua ku
then snooker with tu di and
maybe pool with alien.

see how my plan falls in place today.
i duno how am i gonna make it to so many dates. hahas.
i am CRAZY!!!! gtg! bb!!

SMELL AND BREATHE freedom!

signing off
12:54 PM

FREEDOM IS NEAR!!! i can SMELL it! it is FREAKING NEAR!!!! =)
less than 24 hrs later, i will be sitting for my LAST OWNAGE PAPER!
and then 26 hrs ltr.. i AM FREE FREE FREE!!!

date me date me date me!!! HAHAS.

though i have NSL after tt. hais... cannot enjoy my freedom immediately.
must go give moral support =(
sadded....

lalala.. wad shld i do with my freedom!
OH!!! I HAVE TO LEARN DRIVING. ALMOST FORGOT BOUT TT =x

and hmmm.. all my datessss. yay!!!
all my snooker.

SWEET TASTE OF FREEDOM!

if only i was the one and u were the one

signing off
1:33 AM

i am bored.
so i am blogging.

ehhhh... 2 days to end of exams.
12 days to =)

hmmmm... wad shld i tag bout?
12Aus for nxt sem.
i can afford to take 2-3 more electives.
one with hall frens. one with sushi and gang. =)

ehhh... life's been gd though ytd was hell of a nite.
really had the urge of giving up.
but cannot ba...

u know when u feel really helpless, everything comes back to u.
is like u remember all the sad things.
and all of a sudden, i feel like calling mummy.
but too bad, she's not there.
thinking bout it... still brings tears.
but well well well. it's meant to be, it's meant to be.

oh well! study ba! MEL MEL, DUN THINK SO MUCH.
THINKING SO MUCH DOES NOT IMPROVE UR GRADES!!!!!!!!!!!

signing off
9:48 PM

i have nvr felt so unprepared for a major exam before.
today was the first time.
the feeling sucks...

and i actually did last min studying till 3.30am ytd just to fill my brain with all the reactions.
after today's paper, i decided.

I WILL NVR GO FOR A PAPER UNPREPARED AGAIN!

the feeling sucks.
ur body dun feel gd.
u cannot even expect the outcome.

last paper. 121. i will go prepared for u.

cos i said i will own 113 to show tt i know wad's gd.
i think i will fail to do so.

yupps. decided. my decision for future exams.

-past and present. difference it makes-

signing off
4:08 PM

遗憾不是一天内能造成的。
遗憾是当你回头想一想过去，
感受到一丝丝的怀念。
那就是遗憾。

遗憾是自己造成的，
也只有自己责怪。

遗憾是回不了的过去。
只能笑着面对。

所以不要遗憾，就别错过眼前的机会

所以，我要读书！读书！读书！

signing off
12:46 PM

exams exams... why haven my exams ended?
why am i back in 12???? STUDYING?!
why cant my exams end earlier? then i can have one free week to myself. =(

I WAN MY EXAMS TO END QUICK AND I SHALL OWN IT! hees.

we shall all be brave and face whatever is weighing us down. yea =)
2 weeks will pass soon.
and then i am free! to go anywhere i wan! i wan my freedom!
I WANNA WADEVER I AM THINKING NOW =)

snooker. fam. frens. countdown (sushi...). taiwan. MAHJONG (kel). hahas.. and hmmmmm... wad else????? my date with alien. my date with my meis. min and jace. hmm. =)

signing off
8:39 PM

when life does not balance out, we make sacrifices! =)
and it depends if the sacrifice is worth it.

does not matter how much i studied today.
i know it is worth it. =)

exams dun do well, can brush up de. sure got time.
frens dun spend time, gone liao means gone liao =)
so i know. i konw fully well wad can be sacrificed and wad cannot be.

i just dun feel like studying =)
113m i will own u!
to prove tt my sacrifice is so damn right.
and tt i know wad is gd for me =)
hees..

my dear mummy up there knows wad i am doing.
i know she agrees =)
i miss u momo.

signing off
12:26 AM

在你获得自由的前一刻，是否会留恋那些在束缚中挣扎的日子？也许，你早已习惯了自己的勇敢。

signing off
7:52 PM

YIPPEEE!!!! FRENCH IS OVER!! NO MORE FRENCH SPEAKING DAYS FOR ME ANYMORE!
yes yes yes!! finally got over the exam. and i think i will PASS! give me at least a B pls. A is too high an aim but C is too lousy for my gpa. B pls????? i think i can! LOL

at least i knew how to do most of the paper. =) except for one qns which i really dun understand and had to give the marks to the examiner. =(
but hopefully the rest of my work does help.
actually french is fun! i dun mind learning french for fun. but not for the exams.
FOR NOW! i think i know french's culture better than singapore's. lol... IMAGINE HOW HARD I STUDIED!
i even know how many kids nicolas sarkozy has. i know bout audrey tautou. LOL. and i know chateau de versallies. LOL. unimaginable right. hahas.. look at wad french has done to mel mel =X

and for nowww... no more french. PHYSICS TIME. oh my. pls let me pass physics. my physics not tt bad wad... i took O lvl phy! LOL. and i scraped thru though with a B3. but alamak. DUN FAIL MY PHY LAR i dun wanna take it again nxt sem.

it is only a pass fail subject!!! I HAVE TO PASS!

and fridayyyy!!! woohooo! FRIDAY FRIDAY FRIDAY!!

signing off
7:51 PM

currently, i am in a situation where i need to study, but i am bored of studying.
i feel like taking a break but i have no time.
tt results in studying for the sake of studying and i am not absorbing anything at all. =)
great... gd.. tt means i am dead for physics. hahas.. half dead alr.. phy sucks sucks sucks lar... argh...

i wanna finish exams and WHILE my time away.
why is it tt it is more torturous than As?????!!!

this exam is depriving me of the life i deserve. hahas...
29th is a gd day. gd day! GD DAY!

signing off
4:21 PM

最熟悉的陌生人 =) i like this songgggg!!!!

i am mugging phy in 12 now! i have to master phy by today TODAY TODAY!

so i can study french with a peaceful mind tmr =)

signing off
1:53 PM

I HATE PHYSICS! argh!!! why must i take phy in uni!!!!
dun understand dun understand and i dun bother to understand. hahas.
suddenly i feel more inclined to study french than phy.

french is easier than phy to be frank. hahas

going back 12 ltr. spending my sunday nite in hall
too bad i have to study.. tt's why =)

phy and french this week. god bless. mummy bless. hahas.

then 113 and 121 nxt week. nxt week is HELL WEEK!
ok i admit. 113 is worst than physics! ARGH!!!! shitty.
exams shld end soon. why did anyone invent exams? so stupid =X

settling dinner with my bro only. =(
dad's too busy to have dinner with us =(

signing off
6:53 PM

SALUT!
je suis singapourienne
je parle bien francais =)
je apprend francais pour trois mois.
je fais du billiard!
j'adore billiard!

je suis chimie etudiante a NTU.
j' habite a Kim Keat Lodge
J'ai 19 ans
Je suis celibataire. wahahas!

dans ma famille, il y a 4 personnes
mon pere, ma soeur et mon frere.
j'aime beaucoup tous! =)
mon pere c'est ingenieur
ma soeur et mon frere est etudiants
ma mere morte. =(
j'aime ma mere aussi!

bon ben... AU REVOIR!

I AM FRENCH TODAY! COMPLETELY FRENCH! french french french! i am a french freak =)
hopefully it all pays off and i will do well for my french on wed =)
FRENCH FRENCH FRENCH! jia you everyone!!!

signing off
12:27 AM

HAPPY BELATED MIN! hahas.

had a surprise b dae celebration for min at her hse with wei jie!
wad a strange combi!!! but it's min's fave combi =)

after forensics, had dinner with hall 12 pple.
rushed to amk to meet wei jie to get min's present and cake =)
then took 261 to min hse! OUR SURPRISE! hees.

but then... our b dae song was drowned by min's dog barking.
so we gave up. hahas.

ate cake, catched up with min and just talk =)
like wad gd frens do. hees

so min.. FRENS FOREVER! u cannot abandon me. if not nobody else can spring out such nicely planned surprises. hahas. and me and ur bf make a gd surprise team cos we both same b dae! SO GOT TELEPATHY! hahas. so too bad. u are stuck with me as ur fren forever!

and zoo trip is terribly postponed.
cos of many many commitments.
i still have IH after exams and my driving and my taiwan trip.
damn sians de ne.. like tt, think my driving must postpone.
cos there is no way i can be prepared for my test by 1feb. SHIT.

TIME MANAGEMENT MEL MEL!

signing off
1:10 AM

yippeee!!! one down! 5 more to go. =)

maths was ok. i expected the standard. hope i can do well =)))

tmr shall be forensics. the module which i pon the most lecture.
either i pon or i doze off during my attended lectures =X
so must mug doubly hard tonight.

took an afternoon nap after the maths paper so tt i will have energy to mug later!!!
hopefully my mugging will pay off =)

JIA YOU MEL MEL! JIA YOU EVERYONE!

signing off
8:01 PM

对不起，是我错怪了你
是我自己想太多，害到你

结果对两者不利
都是我的错

signing off
6:31 PM

back at 12 and back in 12!

sch's ended for the exams and if i was i, i would have preferred staying at home to mug instead of returning to 12.
but wad to do? i totally cannot study at home and i left everything in hall.
and hall is a better place to mug than at home! so i have to come back for mugging purposes.
but i woke up late today.
i sacrificed studying time for slping.
so i have to work doubly hard!

JIA YOU EVERYONE!!! =)

17 days. =)

signing off
1:49 PM

everyone is imperfect.
i understand tt fact.
but out of all my imperfections, i desire to be perfect.
i wanna excel in things i do and reach perfection.
minimize my imperfections and do reach beyond my limits.

i duno wad happened.
but suddenly, i just wanna excel. LAST MIN.
exams are approaching.
counting down to start of exams and end of exams. 18days. and we can go out=)

signing off
9:49 PM

我, 是自己最大的敌人
所以必须打败的是自己.

没有必要羡慕或嫉妒别人
应该羡慕的是自己, 羡慕有实力的我

可以把别人当榜样,但不能以对手看待
因为我知道自己已经慢慢的在压力中改变
羡慕只会浪费时间,不如试试打败自己,取得更大的满足感.

我,是自己最大的敌人.
打败自己,认识另一个我.

signing off
3:01 AM

today's a good day! how i know?
i just knew it =)

everything is just... yea. my way.
tot a bit ytd and felt so unfairly treated.
but everything just falls into place today.
how amazing how one manage to pick up my pieces just with a gesture.
113 was not as boring as usual.
dun wanna think of why i am feeling tt way.
just enjoy the way i feel =)

and dad fetched me home from hall today =)
visit mummy. MUMMY~! i miss mummy so. but well, i guess mummy misses me more =)
and i know she's well and fine =)
but mummy knows i am slacking. so it is time to work! for MYSELF and for MUMMY

and then we played mahjong.
and i FINALLY WON
like YES~ luck was on my side for 7 rounds.
even i duno wad was happening. but well. =)

as i said, today is a gd day

and i am counting down. 19 days. YES!

signing off
2:09 AM

exams is 5 days away!
and i have not touched any subject in detail.
no confidence in scoring in anything at all.

played snooker the whole day today.
intended to study my maths OR forensic sci but still went to play
ARGH
have to curb my addiction. or else my grades will be CURBED lols

have to go back to ntu tmr cos there is a 2 hr 113 lecture.
which is the only reason tt can force me to go back. LOL.

hope it is usefullll!!!!

and DADDY'S BACK =)

signing off
12:46 AM

utterly defeated by my self conceitfulness and sky high pride that i will nvr fall

but i fell harder than i expected to.

a changed person in the study environment

wad have i changed into?!

i have to mug. mug and be humble.

signing off
4:29 PM

in memory of dear HAMMY!

signing off
12:35 AM

hammy's gone. together with mummy.
bb mummy, bb hammy.
they shall be good company for each other! =)

mo mo was the first to let hammy stay in the KONG'S household and sponsered everything for him.
so it is only right tt as she is gone, he went to company her =)
now i have one less thing to love. =( sobs sobs.

this yr is a bad yr.
i think it is kinda bad for most pple ard me.
lots of unhappy things happening.
hope everything brightens up by now =)
bb hammy. i am so glad i loved u so much in the past.
u r always my HAMMY baby! =)))

signing off
12:23 AM

how to lose a guy in 10 days?

just finished watching the movie tt angela sent to me this afternoon.
kinda nice! funny but romantic. yupps. though i dun understand some parts due to lack of subtitles.

HOME SWEET HOME FINALLY AGAIN! this week is gonna be very slack.
after e-learning is the last week of sch.so no more tuts for nxt week, meaning tt i can stay at home on mon and tues too! (PROVIDED I PON FRENCH ON MON TT IS)
and then i go sch on wed, thurs at home for deepavali and then sch again on fri.
which means.. i can dun stay in hall at all nxt week and prepare for my exams! as if i will prepare for the exams.

i have a free day tmr and it is dedicated to SNOOKER! hahas.. pls stop my snooker addiction. or my studies is gone. SHIT! save meee

signing off
11:23 PM