happy 1st anniversary mummy...
Monday, August 25, 2008
the day u left us. 25th Aug 2007, 4.37am.finally unable to take the pain, with everyone of us behind u, holding your hands.
and eventually. as u told me. u will go when u cannot take the pain.
and so did u. and i was glad. at least u went away peacefully, and not painfully.
and frm tt second on, i knew life was different.
i remembered taking the whole morning off to settle many many things.
despite the grief, much still has to be done.
and emotions did not have the time to overcome me.
tiredness was taking over and i slpt as soon as i reached home.
kong could not slp and she wondered how i could.
but no one knew. as i woke up and brushed my teeth, i saw my face turning red. i saw tears rolling down.
i could not control anything tt was happening.
maybe tt's wad u mean as overcomed by grief.
i was so busy with stuff so much so tt when i finally had time to myself, the real emotions came.
i remembered crying on my birthday, giving a rememberance of u during ur funeral.
it was painful. i nvr knew i could be so weak.
i tot i could control my emotions but still. i was overcomed by it.
pple really do not realise wad they have until they have lost it.
we lost more than a mummy.
it was obvious.
i lost a pillar of support, a person to depend on and a friend.
and we, u left behind still bear a scar somewhere deep there.
u are being mentioned. but while u are being mentioned, tears flow. memories appear. a stinging pain starts to hurt.
but on top of all these.
this 1 yr, we have missed u, talked bout u and joked about u.
but we are happily living together and we know u'll be here. =)
i love u mummy.
(say happy birthday to me again. this time, in my dreams. I LOVE U )
signing off
9:23 PM
blogging
Tuesday, August 19, 2008
okok. i am blogging again!
this time really due to pure boredom.
dear roomie left me alone in the room. LOL.
so when circumstances call, i just blog to entertain myself!
hmmmm... eh. i duno wad to blog. hahas
sch has started! and i am an ECONOMICS FRESHIE. oh so sad.
but kinda determined to finish study in my expected 3 INSTEAD of 4 yrs.
i have goals now!
goals in my mind which appears every now and then reminding me NOT TO PON and NOT TO FALL ASLP.
but somehow. maybe i still need some discipline. hahas
and besides academic. well. my snooker and pool is improving. IN MY POINT OF VIEW. if u dun think so, then i will work harder to prove it to u. =)
tt's all i have to do. work harder at sth i like which will make me fall deeper for it. hees
and besides academic and passion. family comes in.
family is kinda well balanced and i must admit. i have a 24 HR ALWAYS AVAILABLE DADDY! who has also taken the role of a mum who is equally naggy. hahas
so yupps. but tt doesn't mean i have forgotten her.
for i still cry in my dreams whenever she appears.
1st anniversary coming. i will blog. i will blog on tt day. =)
so yea. my goals : to improve my snooker and pool so tt i am on par with guys.
: to maintain consistency in my studies. so i can PUSH UP my GPA.
JIA YOU PPLE!
and girls. i miss u all! outing pls?
signing off
6:31 PM
finally
Friday, August 1, 2008
MEL MEL IS BLOGGING!
yeayea.. and u are currently reading my LATEST entry. LOL
i aint no SLOWPOKE. hees
hmmmm.. have not been blogging for so long tt i kinda forgot how to blog and duno wad to blog bout.
many things happened in btw my current post and the previous post. LOL
went for spms foc camp.
sa for CLINKZ! yea... they rock man!!! and i earned myself a new nick name.
it's is better for tt nick to be remained unsaid. shall not spoil my reputation. hahas!!!
then one week of break.
almost everyday SNOOKER! AND POOL!
determined to improve and improve on my passion! finding directions in life! YEA YEA YEA.
and i think i am improving INDEED! yesh!
cos i9 have a gd shifu! plus. i am TALENTED. lalala
and after one week of break.
CURRENTLY.. i am in HALL 12 FOC CAMP!
angels vs. devil and I AM AN ANGEL! yay.
helous IS MY GRP and they super high!
i think they are gonna be best og. hahas!
even though i am a disappearing SA cos must keep hosting game. BUT I STILL THINK THEY ARE GD! hahas.
tonight is INITIATION NIGHT!
see how i tekan the freshies! like how i got teken-ed last yr =X
revenge time!!!
i enjoy being a senior! LALALA
and lastly.
the most impt in my life so far..
i am CURRENTLY AN ECONOMICS STUDENT! yea...
finally made the decision liao.
so now i feel like i have directions in life!
i have a passion which i am working on.
and i have no regrets with the decision i made. =)
MEL MEL JIA YOU!
and THKS FOR READING MY BLOG!
signing off
5:10 PM