mel mel's BLAH BLAH land

MEL MEL IS BACK TO BLOGGING!
so guess where i am again??? AT WORK LORS! *dumbdumb*

currently, my whole department went for a meeting and my supervisor (SWAN, YES HER NAME IS SWAN) said i dun need to go. (cos i am a temp).
so i am AS FREE AS A BIRD NOW! no one to stop me frm doing my things.
plus... it's holidays! so there are like no students to bother me. PHEW.
AND i have finished my workload which makes me more free! hees.

ltr going pa giu. i can execute my project elbow. yesh! hope it gets better each time i play =)

and tmr's a special day!
it has been a special day for me for 2 yrs.
well i guess now it's not so special.
let's hope things will turn out well? LOL
though it's a bit impossible
hais.

how i hoped u read ur mail. or maybe u ignore me =( hahas!

signing off
3:13 PM

monday blues.. i am suffering frm monday blues...
super tired today. i duno why. maybe lack of slp over the weekends. hahas!
damn chiong.
fri was prata with hall peeps. and suddenly! MINGFING can play mj.
so me, angela, angel and mingfing SUDDENLY stayover at my hse to play overnight mahjong.
hees.
met hall peeps 7.30 at boon keng for prata as recommended by GG! hahas.
so there was gg and mr a. me, angela, pearlyn, angel, mingfing, ah sun, ggw and clarence!
piggy was almost sick or shld i said alr sick. gg was like dying. lol!
so we ate prata and ZAO! while the 4 of us headed to my hse for mj!
we played frm 11-6am. lol! with a break in the middle for supper!
as usual, angela ate SOOOO MUCH! shocking. hahas.

i was biggest winner in first round! but then lost some to angela in the second round. hahas!
tt seat was SUAY! my seat was like damn wang la!

and sat! angel and mingfing went off early.
ak and me slpt till like 1.30pm but we were still darn tired...
but then i did not slp and i went to snooker. prac my technique.
play le... went for dinner. =)

sun.. i slpt till 12pm but still kinda tired.
dad brought lunch home. i ate lunch and went back to slp! LOL
sun was slping day. super tired. but i slpt at bout 1.30am. watched too much tv.

TT'S WHY! I AM SO TIRED TODAY.
was printing student cards for the whole day. print till my eyes tired and i was sooo darn tired.
was in such an urge to go home.
crashed on my sofa till 9 pm and bathed i TA DA! I AM ONLINE NOW. hees.

signing off
10:22 PM

blogging at work again! lol!
today is FRIDAYYY! FRIDAYY!!!
which means tmr is the weekends!!!! hail the weekends. hahas!
yay!

but it does not really make a difference cos i took a sudden leave ytd to do you-know-wad. hahas
thks to AK who kept tempting me! lols.
so i woke up at bout 12.30 ytd morning. and started harassing AK and made a joke outta myself.
SO STUPID!!! hahas. whatever whatever whatever.

played snooker frm 3-8.
was focusing on changing my techniques. improving (yes, i know), but not enuff.
ak says it does not matter as long as i pot.
but it is my personal passion and goal? to do it, i have to do it best.
so when i know i am not doing the right thing, i have to make it right for myself.
if not it'll forever be a pain in the ass for me. hahas!

so i am still in the process of changing.
angles feelings and consistencies are gone.
wad's left is my struggling.
but i'm ok. cos i know it'll all get better in time! HAHAS

signing off
10:38 AM

blogging at office again!
seems like i am always blogging whenever i am bored.
reflects how free i am, how bo liao i am and how tired i am when i am at home.tt's why i dun blog alr after work.

use all my free time during work to blog!

today is wednesday! A HUMP DAY!
so if today goes on well... the whole week will go smoothy for me =)
pls pray tt things will go on smoothly for me.

did invigilations for english proficiency lvl 1 students.
helped the eng hod.
which was VERY BORING! cos u have nth to do except to stare at the students who r all busy doing their papers. LOL
and u cannot sms, cannot talk, cannot laugh, cannot etc etc. AIYO!
so boring. hahas.
but luckily.. there were a few interesting things to see.
lalala. so not quite bad.

but thk god invigilations are over! back to my desk and com and my bo liao times. WAHAHS!

signing off
12:15 PM

ok.. the other post was very emo. hahas.
well, it was by emolly mel mel. lol

and btw. it's not all meant to be tt way.
maybe i shld put it in another way.

i did advance and retreat but u just stand there.
but as i advance at times. although u are just standing there, i can feel sth in me retreating.
not partly. but FULLY. there seems to be a reason convincing enough so tt i can retreat.

so yea. maybe it all works out this way?
things will work out someway. in one way or another.

and oh my oh my. BACK TO WORK TMR.
guess i am gonna be relocated to some ulu corner with ehhh... nth?
cos of some perm staff coming in, so a temp staff like me, must move and make way =(
well. things will work out.
i hope.

and for now.
headache bout changing course. =X

signing off
10:44 PM

hahas. wad a stupid topic for my post today...

IT'S SATURDAY!! YAY!! I LOVEEEEE WEEKENDS.
esp ever since i started working.
cos it feels like a warzone everyday at work.
u handle pple (many many kinds of pple, esp bitches), u handle documents ( which normally cannot be found), u handle the stupid computer esp the spreadsheet ( which causes a headache cos i just keep repeating the same thing) and u handle urself!
it's all bout how u see this, your point of view and how u make sure u are not in a mess when everything is. =)

ok.. i admit i am not tt perfect cos i am still quite a mess in office.
with new documents coming in every now and then while i am still doing spreadsheets.
so i just keep adding new names here and there frm everywhere till i can memorise so many students' names. whenever i see a few students' name, i FAINT! cos they are the troublesome one. LOL.

anyway. back to my entry title.
emolly melly!
there was one thing on my mind ytd when i was on the bus to tpy to meet AK.
just one thing and it raked up a lot of memories.
there was a sudden surge of emotions and i could feel myself dropping into the emotional hole.
complimenting my moods, were the songs played on the radio. LOL.
so yea. i was totally emo on the bus trip.

i am in front of you.
advancing and retreating, hoping for some kinda reaction frm u.
push me away or bring me to u, either one. it's better than nth.
but u just stand there. not beckoning me to u or walking away.
u just stand there.
when i advance, u just stand there and think nth of it.
when i retreat, u just stand there, not really minding it.
so is better than nth nth?
it's been so long.

wad is it????????????

i am feeling impulsive. but common sense is telling me dun be stupid.

emolly melly! LOL

signing off
12:21 PM

okok... i am back to blogging again.
have not blogged for a longgg time.

went away for a trip to LANGKAWI with my fam and it was an AWESOME trip.
think it is one of my most memorable trips ever.
not to spoil the mood, but it's so perfect tt it made me miss momo soooo much.
everything bout the trip would be perfect if she was there.
but oh well.. if she really was there, then i would not be saying how perfect this trip was, yea?
imperfection is perfection! maybe if she did not go, many things would not be realised.
a simple trip to langkawi with my fam would not be so memorable and unforgettable =)
and i tell u.. she was there! just there...

photos, post nxt time cos i am blogging during work time AGAIN! lol!
with all the students standing at the counter and me blogging here. lalala!

had sudden plans again tonight.
going pa giu with AK. lols.
wanted to plan mahjong with the girls but oh well. our plans dun always work out as we wan. dun we? kinda very used to tt. =)

so tonight's program will just be pa giu! not bad.
at least i get to play. hees.

signing off
5:17 PM

maybe it's things all occuring at a common same time.
tt cause pple to remember someone frm ur life and reminiscene the times we have spent b4.

so many things have caused my memory of u to surface in my mind.
so much so tt suddenly..i feel tt sth's reminding me tt i am in the wrong and things shld not be like this.
u shld be in my life. as my fren.

signing off
12:01 PM