mel mel's BLAH BLAH land

hello! i am blogging during working hrs again.
shows how bored i am and how FREE i am! tt i can actually log onto internet to blog. =)
my manager gave me a job this morning which i finished in an hr. and so i am slacking frm morning till now.
though i had lonely lunch, but it's ok. it's a neccessity as AK said and i am kinda used to it. YAY!
hmmm.. and i am so bored tt i atually volunteered to help my colleague do her job. hees. SO KIND RIGHT!!

oh yar. must blog bout ytd K BOX! hees.
went to amk k bos with hall peeps are work and pple present were :
me
angela
pearlyn
gg and mr A (for 1 hr)
ah sun
guo wei

lol. and we were playing ard most of the time. switching singing styles here and there.
frm opera to fei yuqing to ah do to hip hop and everything! LOL.
and i drank frm everyone's cup! LOL. and ah sun and gw had nth to drink! WAHAHAS!
well.. ah sun and gw rendition of ONE NIGHT IN BEI JING was rather niceeeee =X (well, i'm lying)
hees!

after k.. went macs to have a drink.
me and ak ordered HAPPY MEAL! and we got a toy which entertained everyone till we left. wahahs!!!

yea. and ltr going pool with guess who? AK! lol
tt stupid woman smsed me during work and said she hand itchy. hhas!
SO RANDOM!

yea. guess i wil go back to work.
my typing very noisy. will attract attention!

signing off
4:47 PM

hello pple! hees. i am blogging while WORKING! i am kinda the "eat snake" queen.
while others are busy with their work... i watch snooker videos, slack, walk ard to refill water bottle and ehh.. blog? hees.

lalala. actually i do have things to do. but i have alr finished them WAHAHAS! so i am just procrastinating and wasting time. when i feel like doing it, i will just finish it. if not... my boss will give me more duties. LIKE SIANS!

ytd missed the hall 12 bbq cos of tuition =(
but i earned 60 bucks in return! woohooo!!!! fun yea?
just working 2 days. i have alr earned 160 bucks. wahahas. easy and gd munny!!!
but i lunched alone ytd. sobs!!! the sorrows of working alone. but it's ok! lols.
kinda fun to lunch alone. hees. just like how angela caught a movie on herself! YAY.

hmmm.. time passes darn slowly too when i am working. it's only wednesday! argh!
friday faster come. i am getting bored of my job. wonder how am i going to stay with a job nxt time when i grad. =X

i wan my friday! my weekends!!!!! i wan to go homeeeee. hahas!!!

signing off
10:04 AM

sobs sobs. my first day of work is a sad day of work.
everything was going fine till my didi smsed me to tell me my baby boy junior hamster passed away.
i duno why he died.
he was still fine b4 i left for work
and when y bro wanted to play with him. he was alr dead and covered with ants. =(
the though of it wasn't disgusting but painful.
my beloved hamster. the one i dote on most.
the one which suffered an injury and made me worry for about a week and when he's finally fine. he's like the one making me smile everyday i play with him
and now he's gone.

i was actually doting on the female one. till the baby boy junior got injured.
so by taking care of him, i gradually became bias. i doted him more! and he was more deary to me.
he's the one who's always takin his time to chew his food b4 taking more.
the one who understands wad i am saying and will play with me.
the one who has powerful arms tt can hang himself on the metal bars.
and yet the one who died the most pitifully and so young and w/o me at home. =(

y is GOD taking all those tt are dear to me?
isn't there anyone or any pet of mine tt u can spare?

signing off
9:17 PM

This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye

As a child there were them times
I didn't get it but you kept me alive
I didn't know why i didn't show up sometimes on sunday mornings and i miss you
But im glad we talked through
All them grown full things
Separation brings
You never let me know it
You never let it show because
You loved me and obviously
There's so much more left to say
If you were with me today face to face

[ Chorus ] I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like I wish I could talk to you for awhile
Miss you but I try not to cry
As..time..goes..by
And soon as you reach a better place
Still I'll give the world to see your face
And I'm right here right next to you
It feels like you gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say bye bye
(Bye Bye, Bye Bye, Bye Bye [ 3x ] ) Bye bye

And you never got the chance to see how good I've done
And you never got to see me back at number one
I wish that you were here to celebrate together
I wish that we could spend the holidays together
I remember when you used to tuck me in at night
With the Teddy Bear you gave me that I held so tight
I thought you were so strong
You'd make it through whatever
It's so hard to accept the fact you're gone forever

[ Chorus ] I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like
I wish I could talk to you for awhile
Miss you but I try not to cry
As.. times.. goes.. by
And soon as you reach a better place
Still I'll give the world to see your face
And I'm right here right next to you
It feels like you gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say
bye bye (bye bye bye bye bye bye [ 3x ]

The hardest thing to do is say bye Bye bye
This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandfathers
Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye ...bye

[ Chorus ] I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like
I wish I could talk to you for awhile
I wish I could find a way try not to cry
As.. time.. goes.. by
And soon as you reach a better place
Still I'll give the world to see your face
And I'm right here right next to you
It feels like you gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say bye bye

signing off
10:37 PM

feel like blogging... quite a lot of tots in my heaad.

cos i dun understand how things can turn out wad it is today.
how can someone so close to me become forced to turn away frm me.
it's all my doing? i still dun understand.
u were once so close to me.
once the one bringing smiles to my face =)
once the one knowing sth will last.
once the one letting me understand the meaning of 幸福
once the one whom i felt special to
once the one who can make me forget everything with just a few words.

but now. HAHAS. i dun even know wad to say.

and while i am trying to salvage things.
i duno wad's going thru ur mind.
some signs here and there or maybe it's just me.
reading too much into wad is normal
i cannot put it down.
it's going to take a lot from me. i know.
but i know sth. even if things are fine. it's not gonna be the same =)
i am convinced. pple do change. the heart may not changed but the person will.
do u cherish the person for the heart or for him/herself?
i just hoped there is a chance to tell u everything. and then get a real honest ans.

i believe we are suitable as frens. cos we've been thru things b4.
i am not comfortable with commitment. tt's my weakness. but i dun deny i have been commited once. i know how it feels. to give it all and then to get a smile in return.
maybe one day. i'll be.

this post is referring to 3 different pple =)

signing off
10:08 PM

the bangkok gang!!! GUO WEI, ME, CLARENCE, ANGELA, GAREEN, PEARLYN AND MING MING. ANGEL is photographer. =)

first night - ME AND STUPID KEBAB!

guo wei and his GAY shades. SIMON!!!!

i fell while wheeling on my luggage. was clown for 15 mins DARN

the girls! angel is photgrapher again!!! argh stupid face

hees. stupid pics while slping!

pillow fight!!! I WON I WON!!

only dumb pple will trap themselves in baby milo jacket. LOL

sexy clarence!!!

oops. angel missing again =X

finall i see angel!!! but she not lookng at camera =X

me and angel!!! and cheeky clarence at the back!

hall mahjong KAKIS!!

the girls!

signing off
1:55 PM

okie okie. i am back to blog. =X
really very lazy to blog cos i have lotta things to talk about and pics to post.

first is bkk trip
second is elmo b dae celebration at settlers.
third is mahjong with hall peeps. =)

okie firstly.. bangkok trip!
i think it is one of the best trip i have ever been to!!!
cos i have no parental control, no cash limit. no one to tell me wad to buy and wad not to buy and everything is OWN TIME OWN TARGET!
tt's one gd thing bout going overseas with frens! u are ur own PARENTS! hahahas! and i shopped like mad (considering the fact tt i do not shop) - i spent 400 sing dollars!!! woohoo!!
and came home with a FULL LUGGAGE!
not forgettting the last super HIGH NIGHT. with the stupid scissors paper stone and in btw games =)
and the suan lom night market crazy bargaining. woohooO!!!
thk u hall peeps for the GREAT HOLS!

2nd.. elmo b dae celebration.
at settlers!!! everyone love settlers and getting crazy over there!lol. same for the girls.
we went there and played sooo many games and elmo went esp crazy! keep shouting beside me. ARGH! hahahas. and after tt.. we sat beside the river and started talking crap. =)
i like tt feeling. hees. always enjoyed chilling out with frens.
the right pple, the right topic and the right place to be hees!!!

and lastly.. mahjong.
ALL THE SIAO CHA BO!!! me, piggy, angel and angela. hahas.
met up darn early. was spposed to meet 9.30. but only AK was punctual. angel and piggy reached at bout 10.15? then they self entertained themselves while i fetched my didi to dental =)
and when i returned. we went crazy on mahjong!!!
angela and her stupid newspaper.
piggy and her always lacking one tile.
angel and her last min responses. like PONGGG PONGGG!!!!
and then me and my MAN TAI ZI MO! wahahahas.
saving grace of the day. lalalala...
lunch at boon tong kee was DELICIOUS! hees. angel ate the most =X

and lastly snooker in the night. hahas.
ytd was a darn busy but happy and fun night! hees. doing all my favourite things. hahas!!!

starting work nxt monday le. =(
no more freedom but more CASH! i like. hees

signing off
1:43 PM

hello! i am blogging! due to boredom.
woke up this morning with nth in mind to do. how pathetic is tt?
tried to think of things to do and the only thing tt came to my mind was SNOOKER.
but i dun feel like playing snooker.
cos first.. i have to get my butt outta house
second.. i needa find pple to play with me (which i am lazy to)
third.. i have to waste money. and nah. i dun wan. hees.

anyway. things tt happened during the weekends.

1st.. class gathering at darryl's place.
many pple came. i think more than when i planned things.
let me list them out. me, kelly,sushi,elmo,kee kee, jane, jenric, zhi yang, darryl, franson, timothy,sudave. i think tt's all. did i miss out anything? hahas. OREO? lol
reached there at bout 6. ate dinner followed by chilling out in the basement.
after which, everyone got bored so we decided to play blackjack on the dining table.
punishment was an alcoholic drink everytime u lose concoted by the person on ur left/right.
so.. the guys got drunk after games of blackjack while the girls remained sober.
and we still continued drinking.
me and kee were totally in love with vodka with 7-up. hahas!

and it was back to basement for chilling out again. played cards, chit chat and some guys were dead drunk on the safa upstairs. hahas
and it went on and on and on.. till bout 3 4 sth? then everyone fell aslp while only me, sushi and darryl were awake.
then i gave up and went to slp. but i could not slp. so actually.. i didn't slp. hahas. but i know sushi REALLY DIDN'T SLP. hahas. so she's better. hahas!

me and kee were the last 2 to leave darryl's place.
so yea. i am lazy to type alr. hahas.

change topic. ytd. MOTHER'S DAY!
special day huh! this yr. my mother's day with my mummy alr gone.
but.. i think she is feeling more special this mother day than other yrs. BESIDES last yr. =)
pple really dun cherish wad they have until they have lost it.
but i'm glad i have the last few mths with mummy b4 i lost her. i cherished it! though i hoped she didn't have to go.
went to visit mummy. bought carnations for her. and went for lunch with dinner with my daddy's parents.
then went to visit mummy's parents in the night.

haiz. if only mummy was ard. cos no one went to visit my ah ma though it was mother's day.
it might sound wei da. but i see it as my responsibility to take care of my ah ma and make her smile everyday ever since mummy's gone.
cos b4 she went.. i told her i will take care of everyone and with her weak voice. she emphasised AH MA to me.
so yea mummy. i know how much she meant to u and now she means a lot to me.
so i will take ur place and give her more. give her ur piece of love too. =)

so.. u can enjoy ur days in heaven.

how i hoped it didn't end.
but now tt it did. i shld execute my promise to myself.

signing off
12:43 PM

okie okie. i am here for sushi!
cos she said my last blog entry is b4 exams and exams has ended!!! HAHAS!
exactly a week ago... my exams ended alr! yay!
and i am been kept so occupied since my exams ended.

wed:
went east coast cycling with the girls followed by stayover at my place!
i drove all of them there and then cycle cycle cycle.. we decided to go changi airport T3 for dinner at POPEYES!
stupid east coast has no link to ecp changi. so we kinda made a big big u turn all the way to get there. HAHAS.

after cycling.. during stayover.. suddenly ALL OF US realised we are getting old. =X
muscle degeneration. cos we were all PARALYSED waist down. hahas. cannot walk properly. got WAI BA! hahas.
damn funny.
played mahjong and cards. watched tv till 2. headed bout to fetch my sis frm marina square and then macs supper b4 we headed to bed at bout 7? HAHAS!

thurs :
HALL 12 BBQ! yay
although was super cui and tired frm the whole stayover thingy.
but still had energy for the bbq.
the bbq was FULL OF HOTDOGS AND SAUSAGES. ate till i was darn darn full and then headed home. HAHAS.
wanted to play mj. but no timeeee. hees.

fri :
wad did i do? I FORGOT. hahas
shld be snooker ba. if i am not wrong.
=)

and alien.. if ur reading this. i have not forgot bout our movie date. =)
i'm waiting!

signing off
9:21 AM