mel mel's BLAH BLAH land

在生命里，我们只能往前走。
不要原地踏步，最好，不要往后走。=)

was taking a break frm my studying by watching tv and got this phrase from a drama serial.
found it to be quite meaningful! hees.

i am A CHIM PERSON! lol!

and also CONGRATS TO KEE! i am waitingggg...

signing off
3:03 PM

yay! exams are ending! i am counting down. and counting down. and guess how many more days????

2 DAYS! woohoo! after this tues.. i am a FREE GIRL!
though i think i behave as if i am alr free these few days =)

kee kee came over to bo liao with me (actually to pei me study) this fri. and she is REALLY A ZAI NU! like wth. she can watch videos for the whole day as i studied!!!
and kee.. all the best for ur driving wor! ok? i duno wad day. but i'll pray for u for this week =)
so u owe me one if u pass ok? i wanna be the first passenger!

hmmmm... this week has been rather ok. quite enjoyable and DADDY'S HOME!
yay... though i lose my freedom of the car and everything. but he's back! hees. woohooo!!

and i shall have a lotta activitied planned after exams.
PPLE!!! DATE ME! wahahas.

signing off
9:43 PM

testing testing testing to see if i can see my blog! ARGH!
is my com breaking down?

signing off
10:33 PM

mel mel is back to blog! have been very lazy to blog cos i have been VERY GUAI! cooping myself at home, studying myself to DEATH! hahas.
though i took frequent breaks and disturb pple like KEE KEE or KEL KEL =X all my bo liao frens. and also sneaking out to play snookier. (like ltr) OOPS!
i know i know it's the wrong thing to doooooo! but life isn't studying and studying only.

today's quite a slack day. it's like the day starteed off with a slacking mood.
my sis's not working today. ytd was her last day. so she asked me out to pool ltr. =X
and then yu xian asked me to snooker in the night. which i agreed to all! LOL.
SHIT SHIT SHIT. and i am studying now to make up for lost time =Xthough i am blogging. hees.

and my ah ma is here!!!! to cook TANG YUAN FOR ME! love love love my ah ma. hees.
she's like my pillar of support ever since mummy's gone and it's like she's putting all her love into us! THE KIDS! and it's just so LOVEY DOVEY! HAHAS.

and to end this super happy entry... I MISS U MUMMY! SEE U SOON

signing off
2:43 PM

i am beginning to study.
tt's gd news.
tots in my heads are clearing up. or shld i say i am ignoring them.
now i just wan a gd slp. slp like there's no tmr! so i will wake up fresh and awake! and study like there's no tmr too! so everything will be fine. hahas!
but i have a 10.30 lesson tmr. difficult to slp like there's no tmr. and to the extent to how distracted i was today. did nt manage to study like there's no tmr too.
hahas. STUDY MEL MEL!!!!!!

-i hoped it was true. and it was referring to whomever i wished it was-

signing off
11:17 PM

this entry is not meant to be understood cos i predicted it to be one without a proper topic even before blogging out my tots.
i have many things i wanna say, many things i wanna pen down and it is soooo messed up in me.
so yea.. if u understand it.. give credits to ur understanding of me. LOL and of cos.. ur wild imagination.

今天，我看清了两个人。
看清了自己，看清了你。
我在追求嗜好的当时，我忽略了朋友，家人，甚至学业。
最糟的是，是我心甘情愿的忽略他们。
总是找借口弥补错误。
我错了。

我非常非常的恶劣。
说变就变，搞得周围的人都团团转。
搞得自己不知所措。
心是烦的。脑是模糊的。
我，乱了。

and there i saw thru u.
though i shld have known earlier.
it wasn't more of the feeling of lost.
it is most of being insulted.
i hate being insulted, and u did a very very gd job *claps*
but it does not matter anymore
it is the process of learning and living. you've made me learn a lot.
thk u =)

how can sth so close turn out to be so awkward eventually?
how did i force someone out of my life and out of my circle.
how did i change so drastically towards one.
how did i no longer care bout someone overnight?
maybe as i saw thru other pple, u saw thru me.

i did the wrong thing regarding u.
as i reacted, u reflected.
i just have to say.. gd bye.. my fren.

signing off
12:02 PM

laid down on my bed, thinking bout things.
maybe sometimes.. it isn't the world who is finding faults in us.
it is just that we are not gd enough.
but the pride is us just perceives that we are gd enough and it's the world that is too demanding.

maybe tt's the pride i just have to put down.
i put down my perception. and i looked at things.. just analysed wadever that happened.
i nvr tot of it cos i was quite sure of my own doing.
but when i put away everything, i see things in a different light.

harping on it does not show that u have forgotten bout it, or u regretted it.
it just shows how much u still HARP ON IT.
but i got it all straightened out! YAY! hahas. *claps*

hmmm... i duno how to pen down everything in my mind. but i think it's enough. hees.

and i duno wad to do about u.. though i know wad is the right thing to do. ARGH!
others see it as easy. i know it's easy. but it's difficult for me.
i dun understand how things turned out this way.

signing off
5:19 PM

i am BLOGGING! hahas.
yay! no more test for this week and till exams!
but i thnk i screwed today's test.
it is the classical example of... wad i study did not come out. and what i skipped ALL CAME OUT! wahahas. SUAY SUAY SUAY!
wad else can i say.

i had a dream this morning! HAHAS. a very weird dream.
bout singapore in war! =X and then i was hiding in hall. hahas.
a lot of things. cannot really rem and also lazy to blog bout it.
but it just made me think bout me, myself, all over again.

hmmm... have a phy tut to do for tmr lesson. but i think i also duno how to do. hais

hello pearlyn here!!! mel mel bully me!!!! help!!!!!

signing off
9:14 PM