mel mel's BLAH BLAH land

love..is when i go home! and i see my daddy. kong knog and XIAO DI! hahas.
and all of them welcome me home with smiles!
then i know i am safe and sound. and that i am protected no matter wad.
and i can take life for granted for tt 2 days.
might sound negative when i say take life for granted.
but even though i spent almost 2 sems in hall alr, i still look forward to going home every weekend!
u can ask my roomie if u dun believe.
cos it's where i really feel...special! =)
where i can crap everything to my sis. tell my dad all my experiences. and teach my bro not to repeat my mistakes in studies and other areas. =)
and i can go on and on and on when i talk bout my fam . hees. SMILES!

but i also think love is when everything seems to be arranged.
and all u have to do is fall into it =)
wahahas. trying to be chim.
tt is love. it is the route u decided to avoid ;)

and i have new fave songs! hahas. bout li sheng jie new album today. hahas.
the album just made me feel like buying it.
first time i feel like buying the whole album for all it's songs. hees!!!

but i am broke. and at the same time HAPPY!
i hope my application for scholarship will get shortllisted. and hopefully.. i get it!
so i can lighten the financial burden.

mummy's gone = no dual income = must think more for the fam and do things THE RIGHT WAY!

these few days.. there are things on my mind. but i just cannot pin point wad it is.
maybe one day i'll know. or maybe i know, just tt i refuse to admit. =X

=) STUDY HARD EVERYONE! GET THE As!

signing off
11:25 PM

March the 25th.
marks the 7th month that momo has been away from us.

hmmm... time really files. JUST LIKE TT! and it has been 7 mths since we have been adapting without her presence, her nagging and her love and concern.

7 mths w/o her has been ... how shld i put it ... she is just dearly missed.
YOU R DEARLY MISSED! U HEAR TT FROM ABOVE?

i hope there is internet connection up there! so she can read wadever tt i am typing over here. hahas!

things would have been different if u were here mummy.

signing off
5:10 PM

i realise my life is getting boring.
wanna blog but i find tt i have nth to blog.

i feel tt my life does not carry any excitement anymore.
nth more to anticipate nth more to live for. like... there's nth special bout it.

i am not doing enuff to make my life worth living.
this is not an emo entry. LOL. it's just tt my life is lacking sth.
lacking some TURNING POINT.

so tt i find new things in my life! so tt i have things to anticipate. =)
dun like my life to be so boring. yet i somehow enjoy it being boring.
i am a complete idiot.

i just wan sth. sth...

signing off
11:19 PM

yay! 2 happy things to blog bout. and 2 pissing things to blog bout. ARGH life is FAIR!

ok. first happy thing. MY HAMSTER IS FINE! yay!
though it costs a bomb. but at least i feel very relieved now!
it costs like 79 bucks! for one stupid hydrogen peroxide (which i can take from labs) and a tube of antibiotics. DIAO!
and consultation fee was like 54 BUCKS! when all the doc said was OH IT'S A CUT!
darn. waste my money. but i really love my hamster to not bother bout tt sum of PEANUTS! hahas!

2nd happy thing! GIRLS OUTING AT MY HSE!!! MAHJONG!
ok. this is wad happened. because of stupid DELAYS in the vet visit.
i did not attend any lectures at all. so my plans were like GONE.
and all i did today was went to ntu to fetch kel and sushi. drop piggy at tpy then pick kee up and all went to my hse.,
I WAS LIKE TAXI SERVICE CAN!
and then fetch sushi home! hees. i learnt a new route today! =) GLAD

okie. bad things. 1ST BAD THING!
STUPID VET VISIT WAS SO NOT PROFESSIONAL.
asked me to go at 10am. i went there, waited for 1 hr and they told me to come back 1-2hrs ltr.
so iwent home, took a nap and 1 hr ltr, called the vet.
and they said. "PLS COME BACK AT 3PM!"
like WTH! i have to wait one whole day for u and let all my plans so BWANG?!
sians lors. realy sians.

2nd bad thing.
i am just pissed.
i cannot believe how STUPID i WAS.
damn stupid.
the worst mistake i ever COMMITED. like DUMB.
i was BLINDDDD!!!. omfg.

okie. actually i have a 3rd GOOD thing to tip the balance.
have been playing pool with my sis these 2 days
my sis is reallu my BEST COMPANION! LOVES.
we are jsut getting along sooo well. i miss her! HAHAS(though she is just beside me =X)

signing off
1:14 AM

我觉得，生命中应该狠狠的爱一次
这样，回头看一看生命，至少曾经为爱付出过。

我觉得，生命中，应该只爱一次。
决定那一个人，就从此，心不变。

这是我理想的爱情
可是，我却犯下错误。
不能从来的错误。

爱情，错过，就很难从来。
错过，却又能从来，是机会，是缘分。

这是我错的地方。

爱过，所以知道，我不爱。

错了两次。
都是我。

第一次，不知道为何放弃。
第二次，根本就不可能，我却固执。

错了。真的错了。
后悔了。还有弥补的机会吗？

signing off
10:11 PM

i am worried. SERIOUSLY worried bout one of my juniors.
this is wad happened.
i have 2 males and 1 female hamsters.
i have alr separated the female one, leaving the 2 males tog.
and so.. the 2 males turned into RIVALS!
somehow the big one dominated everything and started bullying the poor small one.
so now my small junior is injured and even has blood stains round the injury.
terrible isn't it?
my heart is aching for him =(

so.. i had no choice but to give one away to my cousin's gf.
so she bu de =(

but the main focus now is how i can treat my injured junior.
hope he gets well =( dun die again on me =(

and the worst thing is how EVERYONE SAID GOING TO A VET WAS A WASTE OF MONEY!
it is a life u know. and it is my JUNIOR'S life.
why is it so not impt to everyone?
they were like.. die then die lors. WTH!
i was in my own world after all of them said this phrase.
i just sayang my juniors and wash their cage and make it up to him =(

ok. hamster talk stops here.
end of weekend. WTH! i was supposed to be studing my hr from fri till today.
but i just started tonight at erm 9pm? and i studied only one chpt.
I AM SO DEAD!
i wanna pull up my gpa! but i am not doing anythinng to pull it up!
and i have presentation tmr. LOL.
i did the slides and declared it done. did not even rehearse. HOW PRO IS TT! =)

but this week shall be a gd week.
fri's gd fri. so one day off from sch
and mon's an off day for me cos i am not having presentation!
so another day off for me! WHICH MEANS I HAVE 4 DAYS WORTH OF HOLS!
woohooo!!!!
long weekend for me.
and wad a long entry today =X

bb! wish me luck!

signing off
11:55 PM

yay! it's sat! and i am slacking. have not touched my hr yet though my purpose of staying at home is to study hr!
ARGH ARGH! i need to study and not procrastinate. =(

hmmm... woke up at ard 11 and straight away prepared to go snooker zone meet yu xian
played till bout 3 sth and decided to come home =)

and now, here i am blogging. =X i shall study hr now!

signing off
5:01 PM

mel mel is homeee! hees.
had a terrible with my dad's car today.
i have concluded tt his car DISLIKE ME! cos it always gives me trouble when the car key is with me
and it is PERFECTTT! whenever my dad is around.
I SUPER DUN UNDERSTAND! sobs.

lost confidence in my driving liao. =(

but sth made my day today!
meeting up with min! hees. talk bout things. share a lot =) and just meet up lors!
my 5 yrs gd fren! the one who is my INNER SELF as she self-proclaims. hees

and so.. being home on thurs means tttt... i PON tmr phy lecture OOPS.
but phy is really not my cup of tea.

"put ur heart into it"
"my heart is with someone... how to put?"
"=)"

signing off
11:23 PM

mel mel's current status is TIRED!

had appreciation night dinner at roland's cafe. somewhere at marine parade, near parkway parade.
ate a 8 course meal which was not very filling cos there were like 5 guys and 4 girls.
one serving for each person. HOW FULL COULD IT BE. hahas! but the food was nice. everyone agreed. so thks thks to our FOOD CRITIC - GG! hahas!

many awards given out. congrats to SANDAR and REGGIE! hahas. did us freshies proud.
but now i am tireddd. hahas and i am itching for snooker! cannot wait to train again!

and hopefully my nai nai's op go well tmr.
mummy, bless her k! =)

and hopefully my time management will be super gd tmr. hahas!
rushing here and there to visit my nai nai . =)

i miss mummy.
i miss daddy.
i dun really miss my mei mei who always BULLY me!
and my xiao di! BUT HE'S SO CUTE. hahas.

i miss my 3 hamsters! JUNIORS NO. 1,2,3!

i miss my ah ma. =(
i miss home cooked meals.
i miss slping at home.

i miss my frens. hahas. why am i suddenly so emo? HAHAS

i wanna go out HAVE FUN! GET HIGH!

signing off
1:04 AM

如果爱一个人，多辛苦都是幸福的。
如果不爱一个人，多幸福也是辛苦的。

爱或不爱，不需要想。
因为心知肚明。

回忆，有多开心，无。
它只停留在那时。

我只要享受现在！

signing off
11:24 PM

yay! it is finally the weekends!
i have been LONGING to go home ever since recess week ended. hahas.
but my poor roomie has to stay back in hall for NTU open hse tmr. =(

but! she has her means of entertainment and it is our LATEST ADDICTION - WAHJONG!
hahas... reeally addiction lors. cannot stop playing. =X

all my tests over le. phy and maths test all over! YAY! freedom once again.
but one more mth to exams. must STUDY HARD! hahas. okok

JIA YOU EVERYONE!

signing off
12:21 AM

okok! i am back from my physics lecture! hees. and i screwed it terribly.
all duno how to do. all tikam.
dun even know which formula to use. dun even know where to start. hahas
i am SCREWED! and i realise my fingers are not really listening to me. cos i am typing a lotta typos as i blog this entry =X

and i realiseee... my blog is getting boring.
no pictures. hahas. and everyday blog bout hall life. hees. pai sehs..
cos my phone is being sent for HIGHER REPAIR. lols.
so no photos for the time being. (i hope they give me a new phone when they realise my phone is beyond repair!) wahahahas!!!

MATHS TEST TMR! JIA YOU PPLE

signing off
12:46 PM

u know who i am closest to when all my convo on msn are kee kee, sushi and kel RIGHT NOW.
hahas. true tt the girls are closest to me and they are my BESTEST FRENS and best BO LIAO PARTNERS. =) yay. so glad i have them.

and so sad i have phy test tmr. hahas
i am in my own SELBY world while mugging for my phy. and it's getting nowhere.
my tactic for studying phy is just to memoris FORMULAE! and then when i see qns.. i just pluck in any formulae which i think is applicable. NVR ADOPT THIS STUDYING METHOD.

hahas. unless u are SUPER DESPERATE like me. =X

right choice made. =)

signing off
12:05 AM

back to sch. back to ntu. back to 12. =)
back to normal life as b4 recess week.
and recess week officially ends. sadded. just as i was enjoying myself.
i have to return to school =(

returned to 12 at 7.30am this morning. =X
super early. so i continued my slp all the way till 12pm! HAHAS.
all the way till my dear roomie came back and woke me up =)
my roomie also bought subway for me cos i was super hungry and asked her to da bao breakfast for me. hees. XIE XIE ROOMIE!

and then went for communications class.
now back to 12. =)
ltr must do maths tut and study for maths and phy test. SHIT! XUE TE! hahas!!!
i cannot slp! i must STUDY! (got 0.8/2 for my maths quiz 3. super sad.)

signing off
4:29 PM

shag shag shag. tired tired tired. hahas.
recess week is ending just like tt. sobs. sadded.
and wad have i acheived during this recess week?
more exp in playing pool comps. and just tt ba. LOL
no time to study at all.

so today.. finally.. i left some time aside to study for my oncoming tests.
physics test (i give up liao) on wed.
and maths test (struggling) on thurs.
and erm. i have one stupid maths tut on tues.

so must finish the tut so i can study for phy test on wed. hahas.
although study like nvr study like tt... hais. MY PHYSICS! i need a PHY GOD to appear in of me. =X

going back hall tmr. hall life all over again. hahas. fun fun fun. hahas.

p.s. i love my ah ma =)

signing off
5:52 PM