back to 12, hall 12. 7 more weeks of sch b4 my end term hold starts =)
but these 7 weeks are gonna be tough. i can predict how much i have to mug for my final terms.
no second chances for uni.
in jc, i can study for mids after ct, i can study for EOY after mid yrs. and then pia for As just to get into uni. =X
but in uni, i cannot pia last min, must be consistent in all my grades. sians. there are pros and cons to this.
but for now.. my recess week is goneeee.. hahas.. and wad did i accomplish?
i got no ans from myself cos it seemed tt i gave myself a break although i told myself to try to catch up. hahas... no discipline.
but since recess week is over, no point mourning over how wasted it was.
at least i spend gd time with my fam! =)
go mel mel!
after sooooo long, i still cannot get over the fact tt momo's gone
tears still come when i think of her.
thinking of momo is not like thinking of other things.
u cannot just say "i dun wanna think of it" and then continue with ur life.
thinking of momo is just unbearable.
memories comes back. from when i was little till now.
i still dun understand, why she had to go.
i am very angry, to be honest tt she was taken away from me just like tt.
it seemed as though she was meant to go. since the beginning of everything.
but we kept ourselves optimistic, even till the last min
no doubt momo is happier now.
but at her deathbed, wad were everyone thinking?
i was thinking tt, either a miracle happened, or she had to go.
both will make her happier. but miracles will make everyone happy
then why not? why take her away? why?!
things happen for a reason.
i did not injure my lips for nth.
i spent one whole week at home with momo, and momo only.
she loved me.
despite going thru all the treatment, she said she felt more pain looking at my injury.
my injury was nth compared to her, but she felt pain.
tt one week was momo to me and me only. it was precious.
momo said i am accident prone.
yes i am.
but if i wasn't accident prone, would tt one week have happened?
momo was more carefree when she was ill.
she let it go. she let everything go. then why was she still taken away?
i dun understand.
1 hr b4 she left, i was the one taking care of her.
momo nvr complaint of pain.
but she was in pain
and she held my hand.
tt was the only strength i could give her.
when i was 1-1 with her.
momo said she will hang on, but if it was too painful, she will go.
she hung on long enough. i am so proud of her.
i knew the amt of love she gave me.
these days i realise. i have the character of my dad, but the temperament of my mum.
i miss her so much.
signing off
4:30 PM