mel mel's BLAH BLAH land

this week has been busy.
returned to sch on thurs.
missed out one 3 tuts and 2 lectures.
i needa catch up.
i need time.
i need to manage my time better.
returned to sch on thurs, had thraining on thurs night
by the time i had time to myself, i am alr tired out.
kee kee came to pei me. thks kee kee.
updated myself at gareen's room. =)
then went back to the room and slack with kee while piggy slpt.

today... lectures and more lectures.
fell aslp suring cbc121 lecture. hais.
i need to do my homework which cannot be done unless i understand all lectures.
was all lost during phy.
time to study mel.

competition nxt weekend.
I WAN TIME.

signing off
10:28 PM

momo's gone.

wad's left is wadever she has taught me and precious memories that i have of her.

it's been difficult.

but i'm glad.
glad that i have true frens by my side, supporting and companying me.

the truth remains, but i'll miss my mum =)

byebye mummy

signing off
10:07 PM

my life revolves ard battles now.
i won my battle in pool ytd, i hope she wins her battle.
not tt i hope, but i WAN HER TO WIN.
she will win.

it wasn't the tv tt was entertaining.
it was me. i could not bear to look cos tears well up in my eyes everytime i take my focus away from the tv.
it wasn't me tt was strong. i was hiding everything inside.
i was the weakest.
i could not even look at her and say i love u cos i will cry out when i say tt.
i pretended to be strong, but there's no point seriously.

it's not me to cry in front of her.
i wanna be strong cos others are breaking down at this moment.

just.. dun leave me

signing off
10:51 AM

second time typing a blog entry in hall. =)
today is SLACKISH DAY!!!!! only 1 tutorial in the morning.
and then a maths lab session later at 3.30.
can u imagine i have been slacking for 5 hrs, surfing the net and doing bo liao stuffs. hahas.
and the best thing is I AM ALONE IN THE ROOM!!! hahas!!
my timetables clashes badly with piggy's timetable for mon especially.
only managed to see her in the morning. think i will only get to see her after my french =X
took french with tutu. duno if can cope or not.
with all the trainings and fun tt i wan in hall, i think i have to manage my time VERY VERY WISELY!

hmmmm...got a new watch!! ORANGE ADDIDAS WATCH! very pei with my bag =X
momo bought it for me as b dae present. and in case u duno,
MY BIRTHDAY IS THIS SUNDAY!! wooohooo!!!!!!
19yrs old. not a very significant age, as compared to the guys 21st birthday. hahas

my poor buddy got thrown into nie pond!!!! because it was his 21st b dae.
damn dirty and FUN!!! hees =)

this week damn slack. only 2 tuts. maths and phy. and i am done with maths.
only left physics!!!!! but tu not uploaded yet. so for the time being... SLACK!

signing off
2:33 PM

back to mugging days again!
gonna start doing my maths tutorial proper later. =)
at such a late hr, really reminds me of the times when i mugged for As. =)
realised tt i forgot a lotta of fundamentals in maths during the make up lecture today.
time to STUDY HARD AND RECALL! =)
time to refer to jc notes. =X my god...

played snooker with yu xian and my god. it was terrible form.
i played better in nanyang hse. tt's wad i can say.

then dinner at grandma hse and home sweet home!
going back hall tmr =(

life is unfair.
but can life dun be so UNFAIR!
i am so pissed.
wad's the use of trying everything when it proves USELESS?
is there some GOD? ANY GOD! help me.

signing off
11:27 PM

signing off
11:59 PM

thks for everyone telling me to jia you! hees.

i think life is looking up for me these days!
many good GOOD GOOD things happened!!!

I GOT INTO NTU POOL AND SNOOKER TEAM! hahas
a dream come trueeeee..
went for trials today and got selected together with 2 other girls. =)

and then!
I SAW A SHOOTING STAR YTD at vanessa's room!!!
was looking outta the window when i saw sth PHEW past!!!
thought it was fireworks in the beginning and took me a while to realise wad it was. hahas
BUT IT IS SHOOTING STAR! damn niceeee. =) =)))))))

and tmr i am going homeee! though i have to go back for lecture on sat =(
but at least i get to go home! WEEKENDS ARE WORTH ANTICIPATING =)

signing off
1:21 AM

i am home i am home!!! hahas..
decided to return to hall tmr morning, cos can hitch a ride from my daddy! YAY!!
daddy rocks!
so i get to slp at home for ANOTHER night! yay!!! happy happy =)

made full use of my weekends. hees.
priority now is family, esp when i am home.
could not make it for alien's pubbing session cos of my grand dad b dae celebration
could not join SHERLOCKS for movie cos of tuition.
ARGH! a bit sadded. but nxt time i SURE CAN MAKE IT DE!!! hees.

and not forgetting my snooker. argh
weekends cannot curb my addiction for snooker. i need it EVERYDAY! hahas..
played with my BOTAK snooker partner for 2 times b4 he booked in again tonight.
sadded. HAHAS

going back hall tmr morning. sobs..
have to get used to hall life ASAP! hees
and the beginning of tutorials =( i just tried to do a tut ytd night.
it killed me. hahas.. too long nvr do tut le.
and i got my GERMAN! which means ADDITIONAL TUTORIALS.
hope german aint tt difficult. hahas. if not i still can drop the subject =X

signing off
8:22 PM

bad day. today is one bad day, to me at least.
though it was the first day of SCH! first day of lectures.
slpt at 2am and woke up at 7.30. obviously lack of slp.
and then attended PHYSICS lecture which got me super slpy and blur.
but still tahan-ed thru it. managed to understand some parts of it.
must revise slides again.

then break for 3 hrs.
went back room to scan com, slack and BINGE on MASHED POTATO with piggy
then meet kel and bei and went to eat at cafe express.
only shared one apple pie with piggy.

and tt lasted me 3 hrs! forensic sci lecture.
i was dozing off like siao. while kel and piggy were so awake.
THIS IS THE PART WHICH MADE ME MISS SU KEE KEE!! my slping partner =X
after tt 3 torturous hrs, went back room.
ate hall 14 western food and off for tuition.

IT WAS A NIGHTMARE going home from ntu. damn crowded and tired.
tuition was fine.
but i cannot tahan 3 days of tuition per week. thinking of calling it off alr.
let's see on sat.

not in a very good mood today.
needed someone to talk to.
tried to find one, but suan le. shall not elaborate on my feelings.

hall life made me realise how much i missed my fam.
i wanna give all my free time to them
but my time is so torn btw tuition, driving, studies and fam.
though hall life is fun, but i really miss my family.
so little time, but so many things to do.
maybe this is call growing up and taking charge of wad i need to do.
but i feel like crying =(
i think i am breaking down, though i see no reason in it.
i hate the feeling of being dependent. tt's why i am trying not to be too dependent.
but it's making me feel so vulnerable.

tt's why i needed someone to listen and talk to me today.
but couldn't.
thk u sua ku =)

signing off
10:41 PM

hello hello! mel mel is blogging with PIGGY beside me. hahas

pictures pictures!

been busy with hall life lately.. hall life RAWKS!! but damn tiring

cos everyday slp at 2am or later than tt...

sherlocks sherlocks!

signing off
11:20 AM

HALL 12 FOC WAS DAMN HARDCORE! hahas..
but damn FUN and DIRTTY too!!!
but SHERLOCKS ROCKED THE HELL OUTTA ME! hahas..
yay!!!!! foc rulessss.... but damn shag now. pictures nxt time.

and the simpsons damn LAMEEEEE... hahas

signing off
11:07 PM