there is come sort of denial game going on. maybe it is just my game, i duno. but everything i say, which i might mean it, somehow does not turn out serious but just like a joke. i dun understand. maybe it is for the better? yupps. i think so. status quo is rather good. but humans are greedy in nature. we normally crave for things tt we cannot get. and when we get it, we think nth of it. tt's why humans err. we take things for granted. we only cherish it after it is gone. i learnt tt lesson. tt's why everything tt i say, i dun wanna take it seriously. i cannot commit to whatever i have said.
and hmmmm... maybe it is just my game
signing off
1:02 AM