blah blah land

2010-07-18T01:58:00.002+08:00

i will like to be with someone ...
who,
cooks for me anytime of the day
plays on any musical instrument and tells me how we should be like
knows when i wanna be taken seriously and when i m not
understands when i have my pride up high and when it's at rock bottom
knows when i wanna chill at home or game for outdoor activities
needs me but has our own private life
makes me better person altogther and colours my life!
tells me i am the only special one in this whole wide world for him =)

i think i have to wait long long. WAHAHA! time to slp!!

Florence

2010-06-24T07:10:00.002+08:00

Hello my devoted readers (if there r still any)

I decided to blog on my end of sem trip after exams at uni of copenhagen SO THAT! i will not forget about my adventures after a long long long long time!

It was a really really tiring few days before my trip cos we had gatherings with friends back at cph and then went for a COOL ROADTRIP to LEGOLAND the next day! so we didnt really have any time to rest and recuperate after exams.

so. took a flight from cph to pisa and reached pisa ard 1. slpt like a log on the plane thks to 3 hrs of slp before the HOLIDAY!

so when we reached pisa, there was horrible miscommunication and we bought train tickets under the help of many kind people who saw us as BLUR TOURISTS!

and our journey to florence began! 1 hr train ride to florence and daph slpt very unglamly on the train =X we had the luck to sit in a carriage with MINIMAL air con while the rest had AIR CON TT WAS WORKING! tough luckkk!!!

and then we finally reached florence! and spent 2 hrs unpacking and arranging our stuffs.

i dun understand how we took 2 hrs, but yea. it was dinner time by the time we were ready!

so we went to a recommended dinner place which served famous florence steaks to have our dinner but! it wasnt open till 630 and we were 1 hr early. so we went to the leather market to pass time and MY GOD! i have nvr smelt leather so strongly in my life. every shop was selling leather wallets, bags, keychains, and even notebooks! cool huh! and prices are quite reasonable! i m intending to get a small coin pouch to ease my travelling tmr. =)

after 1 hr of time passing, we FINALLY FINALLY went to have dinner! daph and i initially wanted to share a steak but we had differing tastes. she likes hers medim rare but i prefer well done. so eventually, i ate wild boar meat and she ate beef. my dish was fineeee. not very impressive and half of the time, i duno wad i m eating actually. HAHA LOOK AT PICS ON MY FB! (hope i upload them soon)

when the pigs are fed, we started TOURING! OFFICIALLY. =X went up to pizzale michaelangelo to supposedly see the sunset. but the bus took so long that we missed it! scenery was stil AWESOME! and i think we spend at least 2 hrs over there CAMWHORING! super breathtaking scenery. =)

and so the weather started turning cold and we decided to head back cos we are obviously tired by the walking and lack of slp! and now!! i m gonna turn in too! cos i need my beauty slp to last all 11 days of my trips!

LOOK OUT FOR MY UPDATES =)

not so miserabe after all

2010-05-25T01:52:00.002+08:00

I don't feel so miserable about you anymore

Is it because of the exams?

Is it because of the great weather outside?

or is it you just don't matter that much anymore?

or or or, have someone managed to take you out from where you belong?

I don't know. But i do know that its a good thing that i am not feeling that miserable about you anymore.

Sometimes i wonder if its my fault or if its the fault of others.

I can give everything for a friendship that i treasure so much.

It took me so much thought to really tell her about what i think.

I thought friends could be truthful to each other and then we become better friends.

How can it be that this friend, whom i treated so dearly, didnt even bother replying to me.

It could be my fault that i was too harsh? But wouldn't one reply if you really cared?

so all my giving in was all in vain?

How can it be that you don't care, but i can care so much?

52 days more of life in europe!! at least things cleared up in the last 52 days =)

feelings

2010-05-18T03:53:00.002+08:00

5 mths and 17 days in copenhagen officially

less than 2 months to home!

i wonder how will i feel when i really really get home after so much anticipation and how much i will miss copenhagen and of cos, the friends that i have made over here!

more than half a yr of life outside home and i really treasure home!!

even more after i travelled with my dad, aunt and sis!

i lived up to some promises like being strong on myself, not throwing the face of the KONG family, etc, etc.

i am also quite satisfied with how i m doing here. met my own expectations!

but for some matters, bahhh, i have not exactly achieved wad i set for myself before leaving!

2 MORE MONTHS!

i miss u soooo much sometimes

missing people

2010-02-15T19:25:00.002+08:00

I M BACK! berlin (for quite some time)
and the weekend had been hectic for me.
have been going to not-so-good parties and one good party (economics) recently, but met some nus people and they r great friends to be with! =)

received sushi's card for vdae and cny and I AM SOOOO HAPPY!
feels gd to know tt people back home are missing u and making the effort to let me know tt SUSHI MISS ME! hahas.
yea, i miss home too!
and there r so many people i miss! but i m enjoying life here.
enjoying the freedom of LENIENT laws, enjoying of freedom of no one nagging at me =X, enjoying the freedom of controlling my own life and doing what i wan!

it will take of all me and copenhagen to find my own happiness someday =)

一样的人

2010-01-25T00:49:00.001+08:00

如果，六个月后，我还是一样。。。
那我就真的完了。
因为现在的我只想和你。

2010-01-17T10:59:00.001+08:00

updates on copenhagen life cos i just dun feel like slping after a drinking session with some danish pple and my course mates. hahs

feeling abit seh as i m blogging this. think my alcohol intake is gonna increase a lot when i return to singapore. pple here drink like ALCOHOL IS FREE!

went to malmo, sweden today!
well.. the normal girls shopped a lot while i erm... looked ard and spent most of my money on groceries =X if u know me, u know i m not the shopping kind. =)

i changed like 100 sgd and its almost gone when i returb frm malmo. =X

had dinner at a fren's place after tt and headed to another frens place for drinking. OMG
i think i m drinking a lot and getting high. LOL

been going to 3 parties this week and i really needa rest and get rid of the alcohol in my body. SHIT!
its getting unhealthy here! i keep eating AND drinking. omg!

but i get to travel! going to prague from 27jan to 1 feb and then berlin frm 6feb to 9 feb. hahas! ITS GONNA BE GD!

but overall.. COPENHAGEN ROCKS! REALLY THE EXP OF MY LIFE!

Day 3, 4 and 5

2010-01-05T06:40:00.002+08:00

ok. speed post today. had a very tiring day today! sch started and i just moved into my hostel!
my hostel has a very cosy feeling and the room mates are nice. so i guess i will fit in alright sooner or later!
its just that the rm's a bit empty and there's no wardrobe. so i have no place to hang my clothes!
and the table is just a table. =X not like NTU's one which has many drawers and a cork board to pin notices. hahas.

anyway, Day 3 was spent visiting my main campus when the official semester starts - when i start taking economics lessons
yea i mentioned tt my sch building was once a hospital, but it still has the "english" feel. hahas!
and there are 5 lakes aound it, so i guess i will take a lotta pictures as the season changes! =)

day 4 was spent visiting christiania which is like the "lawless" area in copenhagen
it separates itself from copenhagen and has its own government and laws! and even their own flag! LOL
so in there, you can openly sell drugs and yea, u saw it correctly, OPENLY SELL DRUGS!
and people just trade drugs here and there!
the danes think that gathering these people at a place is easier to control than having people selling in black markets which might be more difficult to monitor!
so that place is really LEGAL and OPEN TO ALL! the only minus point is that u cannot take picture! HAHAS. which explains little photos on my fb ytd.

ok. day 5! sch finally started! and i had to move into my hostel before i could go to sch.
woke up at 6am. FREAKING 6AM. to bathe, last packing and to MOVE to my hostel
lugging my luggage to the metro station was horrible!
WE SWEATED IN COLD WINTER! can u imagine how horrible it was? my god... i hope i dun have to do tt again. my arms and wrists are aching frm today's EXERCISE!
when we finaly reached the hostel, there was A WHOLE LOT OF exchange students and they were all speaking in slangs.
i think singlish doesnt work for them at all... my english has become so PUURRRRFECT when i converse with people here!
and so the exchange students gathered after collecting keys and made way to sch where we all take the danish course!

danish course was HARD!
i m never gd in laguage as can seen from my french exp.
but i hope i can really master danish as i will need it for my 6 mths over here!!! hahas

after sch, shopped and bought a bit of grocery and then company my fren to his hostel which was QUITE FAR
before going back to hall for dinner, bathe, unpack and SLACK!

my entry is really brief today cos i m really tired from all the travelling and cold. HAHAS
so i m gonna slp nw! NIGHTS WORLD.

p.s. I M OFFICIALLY HOMESICK!

Day 2!

2010-01-03T16:29:00.002+08:00

ok. i realised my day 1 was super long. hahas!

the most memorable thing about day 2 was the WEATHER.
OH MY GOD! i have never been so cold in my life before.
its about -4 to -5 degrees and the wind is WOOHOO! hahas!
i just dun feel like talking and walk with my head down when the wind blow. trust me! ITS SO COLD I BATHE THE MOMENT I REACH THE HOTEL RM. hahas!
i feel so clean over here cos i bathe in the morning when i wake up, and in the night after i weather all the coldness over here!

oops. ok. day 2!
we started off by making our way to the amalienborg palace.
its the place where the royal family stays during the winter season!
and as all tourist do, we got lost and started asking for directions
a blessing in disguise, as we were asking for directions, a lady told us that the queen's guards are marching past and woohooo!! it was damn nice!
the danish would salute the guards and EVERYONE was following them.
even traffic had to give way to them. DAMN POWERFUL RIGHT
and there was the military band, a few soldiers and commander! poor things marching in the middle of the cold weather.
so we followed them all the way to the palace and they started marching and doing formations which i duno or how long.
and we just stood there in the cold, trembling and hoping for sth to happen, but nth happened. LOL
so we left the place and took warmth in this beautiful church! (sorry! all pics in my fb) hahas!
after tt, we went for lunch, hoping to get some warmth and DAPH got some warmth! hahas
the italian guy in the pizza shop tried to hook up with her and eveN GAVE HER HIS NUMBER! lol!!! damn funny. i m still making fun of her till now =X

after tt, we didnt know wad's gd for us ( should have headed back to the hotel instead ) and went to find this canal called the nyhavn canal.
i duno if we eventually went to the right one, but it wasnt tt nice but it was FREAKING COLD.
the wind was omg!!!! we really cursed as we walked along the whole canal!

finally.. when we were battered by the cold weather, we decided to go back to the hotel!
the day here is really short and pple really end their day early.
so back to the hotel and the routine begins!
down to the lobby to use wifi, dinner, watch tv till we rot, and SLP!

is today's entry shorter? or longer? cos i wanna blog bout day 3 too =X
ahhhh. i miss home though its nice here. HAHAS

copenhagen days

2010-01-03T01:14:00.002+08:00

ok.. since i am free now, shall make a note on how i spent my past 3 days in copenhagen. walking a lot a lot despite damn cold. i think i am amazed at myself. HAHAS. i think i will whine and whine and whine if i had gone with my fam instead. i guess this trip will really make a different in my life =)

let's hope so! its only the first 3 days.

firstly, i just have to say this... DANISH PEOPLE... are
1) Friendly
2) TALL ( i feel so NORMAL over here! )
3) cute (HAHA)

I dun't think Singaporeans will ever bring their kids to the road just to look at cars and then talk to people who are asking the way like they are friends!
Singaporeans will not ask people if they are lost or smile without reason.
Well... i didnt get a culture shock over here cos i suppose.. they r really wonderful people!

ok. enough of diverting. DAY 1
landed at about 7.16am in the kastrup airport
met up with John's super FAB mentor, nina and she brought us all the way to our hotel!
but the journey to the hotel was torturous.
my luggage's wheels werent working properly and the roads weren't really flat... so i really had trouble dragging my luggage.
and guess wad.. we walked for a good HALF AN HOUR! dragging lousy and heavy luggages, carrying an oversized bag pack and it was -3 degree celcius! MY GOD! aint i amazing? hahas!
it doesnt stop here!
when we finally reached the hotel all SHAG! the reception told us the room aint ready and check in is at 2pm! it was only 10am when we reached the hotel!
so we deposited our baggages there and went WALKING around the area for a good 4 hours.
seriously... i missed the weather in singapore as i was walking. HAHAS

we didnt do much.
simply really walking around, getting to know the place
and then ending our walking trip by visiting the MERMAID!
i actually visited the mermaid on my first day in copenhagen. HAHAS.
so actually. i can alr tell people tt i have been there, done tt!
the mermaid is really over-rated. its so small and its JUST A STATUE!
i think people will still visit it cos its like the TRADEMARK. but i think its really over rated.
luckily we didnt have to pay any money to see it... or i will curseeee!
and singapore's merlion is so much more worth it if we have to pay =X

so we checked into our rm after visiting the mermaid!
the rm is AWESOME!
it has DRYER, WASHING MACHINE, DISH WASHER, OVEN, MICROWAVE, A WHOLE SELECTION OF CUTLERIES! hahas.
not forgetting the comfy beds with super fluffy comforters!

the most interesting thing actually happened in the night!
the 3 of us initially planned to take a train down to the city to celebrate and countdown to 2010!
but then... due to jet lag, we OVERSLPT and woke up at 12mn instead! hahas.
ok. kinda a pity but then! we didnt miss out on their traditions i think
there was FIREWORKS EVERYWHERE! and i seriously mean everywhere.
we were surrounded by fireworks as every household release fireworks to celebrate the new year. DAMN AWESOME CAN!
so tts how i spent my first day in copenhagen and my first moments of 2010. HAHAS!

WAD A MEMORABLE WAY!

leaving home!

2010-01-02T16:58:00.001+08:00

hello people!

i said i will REVIVE my blog and HERE I AM!
currently sitting in my hotel lobby, using their wifi to go online.
its only 10.02am here in copenhagen while its already evening time in Singapore!

it has been ok so far... not a lotta of missing home but definitely missing everyone a little!

the 3 of us have been walking around our area VERY OFTEN!
so much so that we seem to be cursing more often at the weather, esp when the wind blows.
damn it!

why does it have to be so cold and my winter clothings seem so insufficient??

i m soooo hungry!!!
needa go cook breakfast! LOL

10

2009-12-20T22:48:00.003+08:00

10 days before leaving.
TIME PASSES SO FAST!

have been so bz meeting up with all my frens till i have no time to slp! LOL
and no time to think!

i cant be normal. i can only run away =)

so tts wad i m gonna do.

COPENHAGEN IN 10 DAYS!

i just wanna come back as a stronger person w/o u

2009-12-12T13:33:00.000+08:00

i will close the chapter and keep it aside.
if tts the best thing to do.

euphoria

2009-11-22T15:20:00.002+08:00

Mugging is interesting
In one way, I feel that i do learn things during my uni years as i study and scrutinise every detail in my notes
In another, its torturous cos i have to SCRUTINISE and not relax and take it as just another reading material!

staying in hall and mugging into late nights are fun! lol. with all the little little tinge of humour that my room mates bring. HAHA

and its even better! if mugging into late nights give me dreams that i hoped could turn into reality!
dreams that gives my a sense of euphoria within!
its a virtual world where u can do anything u like and heck everyone's reaction and then wake up! and realise nth actually happened.
but wad really happened was... u get to feel wad you might never ever feel in reality before.

if only life is always a dream.
i never wanna get out of it at all.

convinced

2009-10-01T23:46:00.000+08:00

i m convinced.
after so long.
tt is futile and taking a toll on myself.

i wished long and hoped hard.
but its obvious.
so i m convinced.
dead convinced.

somethings will nvr return again.

2009-09-03T18:42:00.003+08:00

do i always love to commit mistakes which i already know IS a mistake?

and then let it continue because it is MY mistake.

am i doing it because everyone thinks that it is right?

even when i am wrong

then wad if.

i wanna do sth that i so think its right

but is wrong to everyone.

even so, i think its still worth it.

but i am lacking... courage.

so shld i continue? or shld i just face the music?

people

2009-04-26T23:47:00.002+08:00

what is kinship? what is love?
does it mean just visiting your elders only during special occasion?
does it mean not giving them a damn at other times then?
does it mean not even a call from u?
does it mean no visits at all?
does it mean just coming for dinner and then saying byebye and disappear for half of the year?
then how the hell is this called kinship?

cousins, aunties and uncles.
i don't see commitment from them. i only see it from ME!
and i am not afraid to say it.
preach whatever you say.
they don't and i am pissed.
they don't deserve anything.

有一个人，
曾经让我知道：
生气
伤心
心痛
焦急
被爱
开心
关心
幸福
不知所措
无奈

这个人，找不到了。

yr 2009

2009-01-06T17:56:00.002+08:00

this post is a bit late to usher in year 2009 but it's better than nth!
since i am able to fork out time to blog while i am alone in hall. =)
most of the time, either i am too busy, or i am too lazy LOL.

ok! YEAR 2009!
as the new year comes.. i definitely have resolutions to make.
but the only major and main one will be making BREAKTHROUGHS.
cos i think life has been rather boring and mundane for me.
so it's time for breakthroughs, coming out of the old me.
i wanna change! change change change! so pls give me courage and bravery for all my breakthroughs! =)

and i spent the whole of 2008 without momo. it's been an achievement.
with one less person to manage and support the hosusehold
and i am proud tt the KONG family survived well. =)
well.. it's the only present we can give to her - by living well. hees

and for econs. into YEAR 2 SEM 2. lol. i have a rapid promotion after the hols. hees.
from YR 1 SEM 1 to YR 2 SEM 2.
hopefully i will be able to do better. BETTER AND BETTER. yupps.
pull up my gpa and i wanna go for INSTEP!
so pls pls pls. i wanna mug hard too! =) get gd grades and be a better person.
is tt too hard a resolution? hees

and to sum it up. HAPPY 2009! lol.
away with 2008. the yr with no achievements. THIS YR WILL BE ONE OF BREAKTHROUGHS! =)

choice

2008-12-29T14:38:00.003+08:00

mel mel is blogging!

it's been quite some time and in a few days time... 2008 will be gone!
time passes damn quickly.
i remember blogging bout bye bye 2007 quite some time ago and now! POOF! 2008 is gone too.

anyway. christmas this yr was HORRIBLE. TERRIBLE. DISGUSTING.
spent the whole day in bed. cos i was damn damn damn sick.
woke up with the world spinning ard me. i was so giddy that i puked the whole morning.
the feeling sucks.
giddy is worse than headache.
at least u have panadol to cure headache. but NTH TO CURE giddyness. =(
so i had to forgo meeting up with the hall girls and also miss the phs gathering. hahas.

but 2008 has been quite a gd year for me.
it's not damn gd but just gd.
not a lotta acheivements though. HAHAS.
but 2009 will be gd! i guess.
there is not much looking forward to in 2009. not as much as i anticipated 2008.
but it's still a gd time to make wishes. and hope they all come true!
i shall wish tt christmas will be better nxt yr. hahas.

and i am beginnig to realise that i MIGHT BE addicted to gambling. hahas.
mahjong mahjong mahjong!!
i cannot reject pple who jio me for mahjong. lol!
i guess i have 2 hobbies now! SNOOKER AND MAHJONG.
talking bout snooker.. hmmm... shld i get a new cue??? but i cannot get use to any cues and i still like my cue. though it is not performing up to my expectations.

and and and! i finished the whole series of twilight. LOL
i know i know. everyone's reading it. but i am the few who has FINISHED IT! lol.
my lousy sis is still stuck at eclipse cos she dun like the fact tt edward and bella is getting married. STH'S WRONG WITH HER. hahah i hope she does not read this.

and so. THE NEW YR IS COMING! plans for new yr eve! WOOHOO

and there u go

2008-12-17T00:07:00.002+08:00

and there u go!
tt's the title of my blog content tonight. LOL
i am truly bored
i have things i wanna write
but i dun wanna share.

how selfish and ironic is tt.
hahas

my sis bought the book TWILIGHT! and yes yes yes. i know how's everyone crazy bout the book. but since she owns the book, i jumped onto the bandwagon and started reading too.
HAHAS
and to my sister... i think it was the LOVE tt drew u to the book. not the VAMPIRE. lol
cos there was little on vampire. more of how someone can want another so much and so crazily.
so much so tt life aint impt.

maybe it wasn't anything bout the book tt drew me to it. maybe it's something else. hahas
I AM SELFISH.

bored

2008-12-08T21:20:00.002+08:00

ok.. mel mel is bored.
tt's why i am reviving my blog. hahas.

today's rather okok.
woke up at 9pm, saw the rain and hesitated if i shld go for netball training.
but still! i am disciplined! i drove to sch despite the rain and realised tt training is postponed to 2pm instead.
so cancelled some plans and stayed in sch for training.
eventually, the rain did not stop and we had to train indoors which was quite frightening. HAHAS

went home after training at bout 5. and oh my. trust me. i am totally drained. i bathed, watched tv and fell aslp.
and the weather's damn nice! so i went to slp on my bed and covered myself in blanket.
OH MY GOD *BLISSFUL* hahahas. i still feel like slping now,
guess tt's wad 3 days of mahjong can do to one. makes one DAMN SHAG. hahas

and well. home does not feel like home these days.
no one's at home. dad's in china. sis is mugging hard for her exams and other things. always not at home. bro has to study but i have no time this week for him. let's cross my fingers and pray that he studies himself.

oh well. let's hope things turn for the better. HAHAS.
though life's gd! HAHAS.

life

2008-12-08T01:25:00.002+08:00

oh well.. i'm blogging.
this is a long weekend for pple who are studying and working
but to me.. it's just a normal week cos i am having sch hols. HAHAS
maybe the only difference is i have netball training tmr even though it is a public hol. =(
i know gg is reading! HAHAHAS. but i dun wanna drag the team. so i must be hardworking! hees.
and netball and snooker trainings are back to back on each other.
one in NTU and the other in toa payoh.
i will be damn tired i think.
and my flu's coming back. which isn't gd news cos i dun wanna black out again during trainings.
=(

anyway.. this's week rather fine.
except for some jerk who screwed up my mood somehow in one way or another.
thks to little nonya! i am able to let it all out in one go!
thk u nonya.HAHAHAS!

and i really realise things thru exp.
u cannot change wad pple think or wad they perceive of u.
maybe the best thing to settle it is to just satisfy urself and ignore wadever is being said as long as u think u r right.
tt might sound a little ego.
but i really do think my opinions are true. and i do have facts. so i aint making up stories.
so let's be DISASSOCIATED. i wonder where tt word came from. hahas
DISASSOCIATED. =X

pple skills

2008-12-02T14:48:00.005+08:00

heys... i am here to blog! and sneezing and blowing my nose at the same times. LOL
i am SICK! thks to the virus my brother passed to me.
so much for helping him out with his work. and he passed his flu virus to me.

and thks to his flu virus, i cannot go for netball training in sch today and have to stay at home and SELF MEDICATE. lol.

this week will kinda be a busy week for me!
maybe except today. cos i skipped netball training.
celebrated kee's b dae ytd (super belated!!!) but still, it was fun!
ate lunch at yuki yaki and made hell lot of noise and we also did a lotta pai seh things. *they know i know* =)
hope kee kee likes her present (though she owns a similiar one) but OURS IS SO MUCH NICER!
and the HUGE birthday card i made =) hahahas!!!

and so! after today.. i guess i will go for netball trainings faithfully after tmr.
and i am also conducting snooker trainings for hall 12 after netball trainings.
SHAG IS THE WORD.
netball trainings will be fun! but let's see how it goes for snooker training.

and being in hall, working with pple makes me realise things.
when u wanna work with pple, make sure u choose wisely.
it's not wise to choose someone because of friendships, etc etc.
i think it is most impt to base selections on ability.
like gg says. THE PERSON HAS TO KNOW HOW TO WORK!
not tt i always know how to work, but i dun think i am tt bad.
it's fun to work with pple.
but it sucks when the pple u work with is irresponsible, inefficient and has a heck care attitude. OH MY! tt's the worst case. then u might as well work alone and claim all credit.
instead of letting someone useless share the credit with u!
the world is tt pragmatic. LOL.

and somehow.. i have made mistakes. but now! i know my mistake. i will nvr repeat my mistake again!
COS I KNOW WHO CANNOT WORK! =)

one bitten, twice shy. no more THRICE. i rather DIE

there

2008-11-26T23:12:00.002+08:00

i just wanna be somewhere down there.
i know it's a bit too late.
but isn't there a little hope at all?
or have it all been too late. just too late.

cos when i dun make a sound, i am just slient to u.
and when i do, u are just answering.

then dun make me think.
cos it's there every day and night

=(

你说

2008-11-07T23:31:00.002+08:00

你说过，你会忘了他。
你答应自己会忘了他。
你说过，那会是最后一晚。

为何做不到
为何失败？
为何每次情不自禁？
你是坚强的。

时间过了。
感情也应该过了。
他过了。
该你了。

你不要回忆。
但，你也没什么了。
不要活在回忆中。
不值得。

加油。=）

life

2008-11-01T13:38:00.002+08:00

MEL MEL IS BLOGGING! yay! lols
time to take tt emo entry off my blog and be a happier mel mel!
anyway tt was just a rush of emotions. nth much to be inferred from tt. hahas!
anyhow, anyway, not a lotta pple asked bout it. =( so i am not very impt actually! SO SAD.

anyway! exams are coming. stress stress. but i guess studying econs for exams beat studying chem for exams (oops., sorry piggy and gg)
and well! talking bout piggy and gg. hall life is always interesting with my roomie and my neighbbies. hees!
still rem when me and piggy went to collect our room keys for the first time, we looked at hall 16 and 3 in awe! and curse hall 12. lol.
but after 1 and 1/2 sem. no more cursing. hall 3 and 16 are just halls. see! hall life are created by HUMANS. does not matter whether u have aircon or not. IT MATTERS WHETHER U HAVE FRENS OR NOT. =)

ok. back to exams. last week of sch nxt week and i have macro quiz. =(
must study and ace it! tt's wad i wanna do for every test. then ace my exams. =)
i must make change in course a worthy one. hees!
and i hope everyone studies hard too! lol.i bet they will =)
and all the best to my acct presentation. =( =( =(
i hope i dun get bombarded by questions!!!

meaning of living

2008-10-12T12:18:00.002+08:00

argh! this is an entry of desperateness.

i just dun see the meaning of living on this earth anymore.
it sounds weird. but it makes sense.
i dun see wad can make me continue living on this earth or wad else is memorable over here.

frens? family? passion? studies?
definitely not studies.
studying sucks.
sometimes i just hope i can stop studying and GET OUT OF SCH.
i just wanna do sth i wanna do.
i have big dreams. I DO. dun say i dun.
but i just needa courage. i need lots of it.
but it's just not realistic. is this wad u mean by ambitions dun always work out thks to the HARSH reality?
can i stop studying? can i dun have a degree? can i just do wad i like to do?
maybe pple will say i will spend my whole day playing snooker or pool.
maybe? it gives me confidence. shows me who i am. but i wanna do sth big to prove myself to myself. not to anyone.

frens?
frens? frens? frens?
yea. i have frens. i am not exactly anti social.
but sometimes, i just think i dun deserve the irrespect pple give me.
frens are frens. close frens are close frens.
i have my close frens. i cherish them. i dun raise objections or show anger normally.
but i have my temper. maybe one day i will die of bottling them up.
oh well. anyway i really feel disappearing frm this world is better.
maybe where mummy's is IS better?
frens. i am confused with the definition of frens.
frens are pple who r there when u need them most.
yea. i have pple who r there for me. thk u. =)

passion. snooker pool?
wad is passion when u keep ruining it urself
when u are not ur best?
passion = u r happy when u are at it.
yea. i am happy when i play snooker or pool.
but i dun like myself when i am playing snooker or pool
maybe cos it reveals too much of myself.
or maybe i have hidden too much.
i am a bitch when i reveal EVERYTHING.
u'll just nvr wanna know.

family? maybe it's the only thing tt i am continue living on this earth.

i am just sick of everything. can't the world be nicer? or maybe some shld say. maybe mel shld grow up. THIS IS THE REAL WORLD. COME ON! FACE IT! ok then
WHATEVER!

losing

2008-09-22T22:51:00.002+08:00

oooooOOOoo... long time no blog blog liao.
hahas. so this is a NEW ENTRY =)

well... quite a lot happened in btw this time.
first was my sunig.
obviously i lost first round. LOL. as usual.
i hate losing. i really HATE losing.
but i keep causing my own loss.
which is very FRUSTRATING but also MOTIVATING.
so now. it is up to me. to train and to jia you!
hahas

and ytd celebrated sushi's b dae! LOL
had to skip k box because of fam. =( sorry sushi!!
but i joined u all for dinner right? THOUGH I WAS LATE =x oops.
but! i gave u ice cream cake. hees.
so it was a rather well celebrated b dae for sushi i hope.
even though my present was kinda OUT. sorry kee kee

hmmm.. now i am kinda lost.
i duno wad to do.
ARGH! FAN FAN FAN

happy 1st anniversary mummy...

2008-08-25T21:23:00.004+08:00

the day u left us. 25th Aug 2007, 4.37am.
finally unable to take the pain, with everyone of us behind u, holding your hands.
and eventually. as u told me. u will go when u cannot take the pain.
and so did u. and i was glad. at least u went away peacefully, and not painfully.

and frm tt second on, i knew life was different.
i remembered taking the whole morning off to settle many many things.
despite the grief, much still has to be done.
and emotions did not have the time to overcome me.
tiredness was taking over and i slpt as soon as i reached home.
kong could not slp and she wondered how i could.
but no one knew. as i woke up and brushed my teeth, i saw my face turning red. i saw tears rolling down.
i could not control anything tt was happening.
maybe tt's wad u mean as overcomed by grief.
i was so busy with stuff so much so tt when i finally had time to myself, the real emotions came.

i remembered crying on my birthday, giving a rememberance of u during ur funeral.
it was painful. i nvr knew i could be so weak.
i tot i could control my emotions but still. i was overcomed by it.

pple really do not realise wad they have until they have lost it.
we lost more than a mummy.
it was obvious.
i lost a pillar of support, a person to depend on and a friend.

and we, u left behind still bear a scar somewhere deep there.

u are being mentioned. but while u are being mentioned, tears flow. memories appear. a stinging pain starts to hurt.

but on top of all these.

this 1 yr, we have missed u, talked bout u and joked about u.

but we are happily living together and we know u'll be here. =)

i love u mummy.

(say happy birthday to me again. this time, in my dreams. I LOVE U )

blogging

2008-08-19T18:31:00.002+08:00

okok. i am blogging again!
this time really due to pure boredom.
dear roomie left me alone in the room. LOL.
so when circumstances call, i just blog to entertain myself!

hmmmm... eh. i duno wad to blog. hahas
sch has started! and i am an ECONOMICS FRESHIE. oh so sad.
but kinda determined to finish study in my expected 3 INSTEAD of 4 yrs.
i have goals now!
goals in my mind which appears every now and then reminding me NOT TO PON and NOT TO FALL ASLP.
but somehow. maybe i still need some discipline. hahas

and besides academic. well. my snooker and pool is improving. IN MY POINT OF VIEW. if u dun think so, then i will work harder to prove it to u. =)
tt's all i have to do. work harder at sth i like which will make me fall deeper for it. hees

and besides academic and passion. family comes in.
family is kinda well balanced and i must admit. i have a 24 HR ALWAYS AVAILABLE DADDY! who has also taken the role of a mum who is equally naggy. hahas
so yupps. but tt doesn't mean i have forgotten her.

for i still cry in my dreams whenever she appears.
1st anniversary coming. i will blog. i will blog on tt day. =)

so yea. my goals : to improve my snooker and pool so tt i am on par with guys.
: to maintain consistency in my studies. so i can PUSH UP my GPA.

JIA YOU PPLE!

and girls. i miss u all! outing pls?

finally

2008-08-01T17:10:00.002+08:00

MEL MEL IS BLOGGING!

yeayea.. and u are currently reading my LATEST entry. LOL
i aint no SLOWPOKE. hees

hmmmm.. have not been blogging for so long tt i kinda forgot how to blog and duno wad to blog bout.

many things happened in btw my current post and the previous post. LOL

went for spms foc camp.
sa for CLINKZ! yea... they rock man!!! and i earned myself a new nick name.
it's is better for tt nick to be remained unsaid. shall not spoil my reputation. hahas!!!

then one week of break.
almost everyday SNOOKER! AND POOL!
determined to improve and improve on my passion! finding directions in life! YEA YEA YEA.
and i think i am improving INDEED! yesh!
cos i9 have a gd shifu! plus. i am TALENTED. lalala

and after one week of break.
CURRENTLY.. i am in HALL 12 FOC CAMP!
angels vs. devil and I AM AN ANGEL! yay.
helous IS MY GRP and they super high!
i think they are gonna be best og. hahas!
even though i am a disappearing SA cos must keep hosting game. BUT I STILL THINK THEY ARE GD! hahas.
tonight is INITIATION NIGHT!
see how i tekan the freshies! like how i got teken-ed last yr =X
revenge time!!!
i enjoy being a senior! LALALA

and lastly.
the most impt in my life so far..
i am CURRENTLY AN ECONOMICS STUDENT! yea...
finally made the decision liao.

so now i feel like i have directions in life!
i have a passion which i am working on.
and i have no regrets with the decision i made. =)
MEL MEL JIA YOU!

and THKS FOR READING MY BLOG!

ah ma!

2008-07-08T18:29:00.002+08:00

mel mel is blogginggggggggggggg
cos i am boredddddddd! very very bored!

stayed at home today or shld i say i went to my ah ma hse! hees.
no one at home, home alone aint fun.
so i went to company ah ma =) and since her hse got sports channel, i can watch my snooker videos there! hees.

so went there for lunch watch snooker video
talk to my ah ma.
eat again
then slp. LOL.
then go home. hahahas.
simple but nice life.

girls coming over for mj tmr =)
YEA.
gathering again and again and again! hees. b4 we all go for camps.
i think i will die during camps. LOL.

and for course changing.
i think i am set.
i got a decision. lol.

driving!

2008-07-06T15:06:00.002+08:00

mel mel is blogging!!!

today is s stay-home day!
was supposed to play pool with sal.. but he fell sick instead. hahas
so i decided to save up my money, stay at home to coach my bro on his studies.

he promised me he would return home by 1pm after his shooting practice.
but by 1, he was still at yishun.
so i called and smsed him but he no reply.
so i had to resort to fetching him frm yck instead.
and u know how MUST DIRECTION SENSE I HAD.
it's achievement for me to return home safely! after going yck to pick my bro up! hees.

so i have to agree.
my bro have not matured yet.
still duno how to think for himself.
plus my dad is overseas and has lesser time for him.
and without my mummy, it's like one less person to talk to him.

so sometimes i am clueless bout wad to do with him.
studying is not studying for others.
u hav e to know y u are studying and wad is it for.
but he duno anything.
he's studying cos he's afraid of nagging.
so expected, his results are erm. TERRIBLE?

lols. i hope mummy can do sth to make him mature frm up above!

when i can be better than who i was today.

2008-07-06T00:08:00.002+08:00

today was quite ok.
quite reflecting for myself.

u know sometimes.. when u know u r really really capable of sth and u really wanna excel in tt?
but when chance is given, u blow it off urself!!
y must it always be me regretting?

i knew i can do better than how i performed today.
i knew i could beat those pple.
i knew and i KNOW i have more than tt to show
then why am i not?
i just wanna let pple know i am capable.
is it so diffcult?

i just wan to prove myself

uuu huuu!

2008-06-26T15:13:00.001+08:00

MEL MEL IS BACK TO BLOGGING!
so guess where i am again??? AT WORK LORS! *dumbdumb*

currently, my whole department went for a meeting and my supervisor (SWAN, YES HER NAME IS SWAN) said i dun need to go. (cos i am a temp).
so i am AS FREE AS A BIRD NOW! no one to stop me frm doing my things.
plus... it's holidays! so there are like no students to bother me. PHEW.
AND i have finished my workload which makes me more free! hees.

ltr going pa giu. i can execute my project elbow. yesh! hope it gets better each time i play =)

and tmr's a special day!
it has been a special day for me for 2 yrs.
well i guess now it's not so special.
let's hope things will turn out well? LOL
though it's a bit impossible
hais.

how i hoped u read ur mail. or maybe u ignore me =( hahas!

monday blues

2008-06-23T22:22:00.002+08:00

monday blues.. i am suffering frm monday blues...
super tired today. i duno why. maybe lack of slp over the weekends. hahas!
damn chiong.
fri was prata with hall peeps. and suddenly! MINGFING can play mj.
so me, angela, angel and mingfing SUDDENLY stayover at my hse to play overnight mahjong.
hees.
met hall peeps 7.30 at boon keng for prata as recommended by GG! hahas.
so there was gg and mr a. me, angela, pearlyn, angel, mingfing, ah sun, ggw and clarence!
piggy was almost sick or shld i said alr sick. gg was like dying. lol!
so we ate prata and ZAO! while the 4 of us headed to my hse for mj!
we played frm 11-6am. lol! with a break in the middle for supper!
as usual, angela ate SOOOO MUCH! shocking. hahas.

i was biggest winner in first round! but then lost some to angela in the second round. hahas!
tt seat was SUAY! my seat was like damn wang la!

and sat! angel and mingfing went off early.
ak and me slpt till like 1.30pm but we were still darn tired...
but then i did not slp and i went to snooker. prac my technique.
play le... went for dinner. =)

sun.. i slpt till 12pm but still kinda tired.
dad brought lunch home. i ate lunch and went back to slp! LOL
sun was slping day. super tired. but i slpt at bout 1.30am. watched too much tv.

TT'S WHY! I AM SO TIRED TODAY.
was printing student cards for the whole day. print till my eyes tired and i was sooo darn tired.
was in such an urge to go home.
crashed on my sofa till 9 pm and bathed i TA DA! I AM ONLINE NOW. hees.

2008-06-20T10:38:00.000+08:00

blogging at work again! lol!
today is FRIDAYYY! FRIDAYY!!!
which means tmr is the weekends!!!! hail the weekends. hahas!
yay!

but it does not really make a difference cos i took a sudden leave ytd to do you-know-wad. hahas
thks to AK who kept tempting me! lols.
so i woke up at bout 12.30 ytd morning. and started harassing AK and made a joke outta myself.
SO STUPID!!! hahas. whatever whatever whatever.

played snooker frm 3-8.
was focusing on changing my techniques. improving (yes, i know), but not enuff.
ak says it does not matter as long as i pot.
but it is my personal passion and goal? to do it, i have to do it best.
so when i know i am not doing the right thing, i have to make it right for myself.
if not it'll forever be a pain in the ass for me. hahas!

so i am still in the process of changing.
angles feelings and consistencies are gone.
wad's left is my struggling.
but i'm ok. cos i know it'll all get better in time! HAHAS

working.

2008-06-18T12:15:00.003+08:00

blogging at office again!
seems like i am always blogging whenever i am bored.
reflects how free i am, how bo liao i am and how tired i am when i am at home.tt's why i dun blog alr after work.

use all my free time during work to blog!

today is wednesday! A HUMP DAY!
so if today goes on well... the whole week will go smoothy for me =)
pls pray tt things will go on smoothly for me.

did invigilations for english proficiency lvl 1 students.
helped the eng hod.
which was VERY BORING! cos u have nth to do except to stare at the students who r all busy doing their papers. LOL
and u cannot sms, cannot talk, cannot laugh, cannot etc etc. AIYO!
so boring. hahas.
but luckily.. there were a few interesting things to see.
lalala. so not quite bad.

but thk god invigilations are over! back to my desk and com and my bo liao times. WAHAHS!

changes

2008-06-15T22:44:00.001+08:00

ok.. the other post was very emo. hahas.
well, it was by emolly mel mel. lol

and btw. it's not all meant to be tt way.
maybe i shld put it in another way.

i did advance and retreat but u just stand there.
but as i advance at times. although u are just standing there, i can feel sth in me retreating.
not partly. but FULLY. there seems to be a reason convincing enough so tt i can retreat.

so yea. maybe it all works out this way?
things will work out someway. in one way or another.

and oh my oh my. BACK TO WORK TMR.
guess i am gonna be relocated to some ulu corner with ehhh... nth?
cos of some perm staff coming in, so a temp staff like me, must move and make way =(
well. things will work out.
i hope.

and for now.
headache bout changing course. =X

emolly melly

2008-06-14T12:21:00.002+08:00

hahas. wad a stupid topic for my post today...

IT'S SATURDAY!! YAY!! I LOVEEEEE WEEKENDS.
esp ever since i started working.
cos it feels like a warzone everyday at work.
u handle pple (many many kinds of pple, esp bitches), u handle documents ( which normally cannot be found), u handle the stupid computer esp the spreadsheet ( which causes a headache cos i just keep repeating the same thing) and u handle urself!
it's all bout how u see this, your point of view and how u make sure u are not in a mess when everything is. =)

ok.. i admit i am not tt perfect cos i am still quite a mess in office.
with new documents coming in every now and then while i am still doing spreadsheets.
so i just keep adding new names here and there frm everywhere till i can memorise so many students' names. whenever i see a few students' name, i FAINT! cos they are the troublesome one. LOL.

anyway. back to my entry title.
emolly melly!
there was one thing on my mind ytd when i was on the bus to tpy to meet AK.
just one thing and it raked up a lot of memories.
there was a sudden surge of emotions and i could feel myself dropping into the emotional hole.
complimenting my moods, were the songs played on the radio. LOL.
so yea. i was totally emo on the bus trip.

i am in front of you.
advancing and retreating, hoping for some kinda reaction frm u.
push me away or bring me to u, either one. it's better than nth.
but u just stand there. not beckoning me to u or walking away.
u just stand there.
when i advance, u just stand there and think nth of it.
when i retreat, u just stand there, not really minding it.
so is better than nth nth?
it's been so long.

wad is it????????????

i am feeling impulsive. but common sense is telling me dun be stupid.

emolly melly! LOL

backie!

2008-06-13T17:17:00.002+08:00

okok... i am back to blogging again.
have not blogged for a longgg time.

went away for a trip to LANGKAWI with my fam and it was an AWESOME trip.
think it is one of my most memorable trips ever.
not to spoil the mood, but it's so perfect tt it made me miss momo soooo much.
everything bout the trip would be perfect if she was there.
but oh well.. if she really was there, then i would not be saying how perfect this trip was, yea?
imperfection is perfection! maybe if she did not go, many things would not be realised.
a simple trip to langkawi with my fam would not be so memorable and unforgettable =)
and i tell u.. she was there! just there...

photos, post nxt time cos i am blogging during work time AGAIN! lol!
with all the students standing at the counter and me blogging here. lalala!

had sudden plans again tonight.
going pa giu with AK. lols.
wanted to plan mahjong with the girls but oh well. our plans dun always work out as we wan. dun we? kinda very used to tt. =)

so tonight's program will just be pa giu! not bad.
at least i get to play. hees.

all of a sudden

2008-06-03T12:01:00.001+08:00

maybe it's things all occuring at a common same time.
tt cause pple to remember someone frm ur life and reminiscene the times we have spent b4.

so many things have caused my memory of u to surface in my mind.
so much so tt suddenly..i feel tt sth's reminding me tt i am in the wrong and things shld not be like this.
u shld be in my life. as my fren.

bored at work.

2008-05-30T16:47:00.003+08:00

hello! i am blogging during working hrs again.
shows how bored i am and how FREE i am! tt i can actually log onto internet to blog. =)
my manager gave me a job this morning which i finished in an hr. and so i am slacking frm morning till now.
though i had lonely lunch, but it's ok. it's a neccessity as AK said and i am kinda used to it. YAY!
hmmm.. and i am so bored tt i atually volunteered to help my colleague do her job. hees. SO KIND RIGHT!!

oh yar. must blog bout ytd K BOX! hees.
went to amk k bos with hall peeps are work and pple present were :
me
angela
pearlyn
gg and mr A (for 1 hr)
ah sun
guo wei

lol. and we were playing ard most of the time. switching singing styles here and there.
frm opera to fei yuqing to ah do to hip hop and everything! LOL.
and i drank frm everyone's cup! LOL. and ah sun and gw had nth to drink! WAHAHAS!
well.. ah sun and gw rendition of ONE NIGHT IN BEI JING was rather niceeeee =X (well, i'm lying)
hees!

after k.. went macs to have a drink.
me and ak ordered HAPPY MEAL! and we got a toy which entertained everyone till we left. wahahs!!!

yea. and ltr going pool with guess who? AK! lol
tt stupid woman smsed me during work and said she hand itchy. hhas!
SO RANDOM!

yea. guess i wil go back to work.
my typing very noisy. will attract attention!

working!

2008-05-28T10:04:00.001+08:00

hello pple! hees. i am blogging while WORKING! i am kinda the "eat snake" queen.
while others are busy with their work... i watch snooker videos, slack, walk ard to refill water bottle and ehh.. blog? hees.

lalala. actually i do have things to do. but i have alr finished them WAHAHAS! so i am just procrastinating and wasting time. when i feel like doing it, i will just finish it. if not... my boss will give me more duties. LIKE SIANS!

ytd missed the hall 12 bbq cos of tuition =(
but i earned 60 bucks in return! woohooo!!!! fun yea?
just working 2 days. i have alr earned 160 bucks. wahahas. easy and gd munny!!!
but i lunched alone ytd. sobs!!! the sorrows of working alone. but it's ok! lols.
kinda fun to lunch alone. hees. just like how angela caught a movie on herself! YAY.

hmmm.. time passes darn slowly too when i am working. it's only wednesday! argh!
friday faster come. i am getting bored of my job. wonder how am i going to stay with a job nxt time when i grad. =X

i wan my friday! my weekends!!!!! i wan to go homeeeee. hahas!!!

i love junior. y did u go?

2008-05-26T21:17:00.002+08:00

sobs sobs. my first day of work is a sad day of work.
everything was going fine till my didi smsed me to tell me my baby boy junior hamster passed away.
i duno why he died.
he was still fine b4 i left for work
and when y bro wanted to play with him. he was alr dead and covered with ants. =(
the though of it wasn't disgusting but painful.
my beloved hamster. the one i dote on most.
the one which suffered an injury and made me worry for about a week and when he's finally fine. he's like the one making me smile everyday i play with him
and now he's gone.

i was actually doting on the female one. till the baby boy junior got injured.
so by taking care of him, i gradually became bias. i doted him more! and he was more deary to me.
he's the one who's always takin his time to chew his food b4 taking more.
the one who understands wad i am saying and will play with me.
the one who has powerful arms tt can hang himself on the metal bars.
and yet the one who died the most pitifully and so young and w/o me at home. =(

y is GOD taking all those tt are dear to me?
isn't there anyone or any pet of mine tt u can spare?

2008-05-24T22:37:00.003+08:00

This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye

As a child there were them times
I didn't get it but you kept me alive
I didn't know why i didn't show up sometimes on sunday mornings and i miss you
But im glad we talked through
All them grown full things
Separation brings
You never let me know it
You never let it show because
You loved me and obviously
There's so much more left to say
If you were with me today face to face

[ Chorus ] I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like I wish I could talk to you for awhile
Miss you but I try not to cry
As..time..goes..by
And soon as you reach a better place
Still I'll give the world to see your face
And I'm right here right next to you
It feels like you gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say bye bye
(Bye Bye, Bye Bye, Bye Bye [ 3x ] ) Bye bye

And you never got the chance to see how good I've done
And you never got to see me back at number one
I wish that you were here to celebrate together
I wish that we could spend the holidays together
I remember when you used to tuck me in at night
With the Teddy Bear you gave me that I held so tight
I thought you were so strong
You'd make it through whatever
It's so hard to accept the fact you're gone forever

[ Chorus ] I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like
I wish I could talk to you for awhile
Miss you but I try not to cry
As.. times.. goes.. by
And soon as you reach a better place
Still I'll give the world to see your face
And I'm right here right next to you
It feels like you gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say
bye bye (bye bye bye bye bye bye [ 3x ]

The hardest thing to do is say bye Bye bye
This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandfathers
Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye ...bye

[ Chorus ] I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like
I wish I could talk to you for awhile
I wish I could find a way try not to cry
As.. time.. goes.. by
And soon as you reach a better place
Still I'll give the world to see your face
And I'm right here right next to you
It feels like you gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say bye bye

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2008-05-24T22:08:00.002+08:00

feel like blogging... quite a lot of tots in my heaad.

cos i dun understand how things can turn out wad it is today.
how can someone so close to me become forced to turn away frm me.
it's all my doing? i still dun understand.
u were once so close to me.
once the one bringing smiles to my face =)
once the one knowing sth will last.
once the one letting me understand the meaning of 幸福
once the one whom i felt special to
once the one who can make me forget everything with just a few words.

but now. HAHAS. i dun even know wad to say.

and while i am trying to salvage things.
i duno wad's going thru ur mind.
some signs here and there or maybe it's just me.
reading too much into wad is normal
i cannot put it down.
it's going to take a lot from me. i know.
but i know sth. even if things are fine. it's not gonna be the same =)
i am convinced. pple do change. the heart may not changed but the person will.
do u cherish the person for the heart or for him/herself?
i just hoped there is a chance to tell u everything. and then get a real honest ans.

i believe we are suitable as frens. cos we've been thru things b4.
i am not comfortable with commitment. tt's my weakness. but i dun deny i have been commited once. i know how it feels. to give it all and then to get a smile in return.
maybe one day. i'll be.

this post is referring to 3 different pple =)

2008-05-24T13:55:00.004+08:00

the bangkok gang!!! GUO WEI, ME, CLARENCE, ANGELA, GAREEN, PEARLYN AND MING MING. ANGEL is photographer. =)first night - ME AND STUPID KEBAB!

guo wei and his GAY shades. SIMON!!!!
i fell while wheeling on my luggage. was clown for 15 mins DARN
the girls! angel is photgrapher again!!! argh stupid face
hees. stupid pics while slping!

pillow fight!!! I WON I WON!!

only dumb pple will trap themselves in baby milo jacket. LOL

sexy clarence!!!

oops. angel missing again =X

finall i see angel!!! but she not lookng at camera =X

me and angel!!! and cheeky clarence at the back!

hall mahjong KAKIS!!

the girls!

bangkok... settlers. mahjong!

2008-05-24T13:43:00.002+08:00

okie okie. i am back to blog. =X
really very lazy to blog cos i have lotta things to talk about and pics to post.

first is bkk trip
second is elmo b dae celebration at settlers.
third is mahjong with hall peeps. =)

okie firstly.. bangkok trip!
i think it is one of the best trip i have ever been to!!!
cos i have no parental control, no cash limit. no one to tell me wad to buy and wad not to buy and everything is OWN TIME OWN TARGET!
tt's one gd thing bout going overseas with frens! u are ur own PARENTS! hahahas! and i shopped like mad (considering the fact tt i do not shop) - i spent 400 sing dollars!!! woohoo!!
and came home with a FULL LUGGAGE!
not forgettting the last super HIGH NIGHT. with the stupid scissors paper stone and in btw games =)
and the suan lom night market crazy bargaining. woohooO!!!
thk u hall peeps for the GREAT HOLS!

2nd.. elmo b dae celebration.
at settlers!!! everyone love settlers and getting crazy over there!lol. same for the girls.
we went there and played sooo many games and elmo went esp crazy! keep shouting beside me. ARGH! hahahas. and after tt.. we sat beside the river and started talking crap. =)
i like tt feeling. hees. always enjoyed chilling out with frens.
the right pple, the right topic and the right place to be hees!!!

and lastly.. mahjong.
ALL THE SIAO CHA BO!!! me, piggy, angel and angela. hahas.
met up darn early. was spposed to meet 9.30. but only AK was punctual. angel and piggy reached at bout 10.15? then they self entertained themselves while i fetched my didi to dental =)
and when i returned. we went crazy on mahjong!!!
angela and her stupid newspaper.
piggy and her always lacking one tile.
angel and her last min responses. like PONGGG PONGGG!!!!
and then me and my MAN TAI ZI MO! wahahahas.
saving grace of the day. lalalala...
lunch at boon tong kee was DELICIOUS! hees. angel ate the most =X

and lastly snooker in the night. hahas.
ytd was a darn busy but happy and fun night! hees. doing all my favourite things. hahas!!!

starting work nxt monday le. =(
no more freedom but more CASH! i like. hees

bored

2008-05-12T12:43:00.002+08:00

hello! i am blogging! due to boredom.
woke up this morning with nth in mind to do. how pathetic is tt?
tried to think of things to do and the only thing tt came to my mind was SNOOKER.
but i dun feel like playing snooker.
cos first.. i have to get my butt outta house
second.. i needa find pple to play with me (which i am lazy to)
third.. i have to waste money. and nah. i dun wan. hees.

anyway. things tt happened during the weekends.

1st.. class gathering at darryl's place.
many pple came. i think more than when i planned things.
let me list them out. me, kelly,sushi,elmo,kee kee, jane, jenric, zhi yang, darryl, franson, timothy,sudave. i think tt's all. did i miss out anything? hahas. OREO? lol
reached there at bout 6. ate dinner followed by chilling out in the basement.
after which, everyone got bored so we decided to play blackjack on the dining table.
punishment was an alcoholic drink everytime u lose concoted by the person on ur left/right.
so.. the guys got drunk after games of blackjack while the girls remained sober.
and we still continued drinking.
me and kee were totally in love with vodka with 7-up. hahas!

and it was back to basement for chilling out again. played cards, chit chat and some guys were dead drunk on the safa upstairs. hahas
and it went on and on and on.. till bout 3 4 sth? then everyone fell aslp while only me, sushi and darryl were awake.
then i gave up and went to slp. but i could not slp. so actually.. i didn't slp. hahas. but i know sushi REALLY DIDN'T SLP. hahas. so she's better. hahas!

me and kee were the last 2 to leave darryl's place.
so yea. i am lazy to type alr. hahas.

change topic. ytd. MOTHER'S DAY!
special day huh! this yr. my mother's day with my mummy alr gone.
but.. i think she is feeling more special this mother day than other yrs. BESIDES last yr. =)
pple really dun cherish wad they have until they have lost it.
but i'm glad i have the last few mths with mummy b4 i lost her. i cherished it! though i hoped she didn't have to go.
went to visit mummy. bought carnations for her. and went for lunch with dinner with my daddy's parents.
then went to visit mummy's parents in the night.

haiz. if only mummy was ard. cos no one went to visit my ah ma though it was mother's day.
it might sound wei da. but i see it as my responsibility to take care of my ah ma and make her smile everyday ever since mummy's gone.
cos b4 she went.. i told her i will take care of everyone and with her weak voice. she emphasised AH MA to me.
so yea mummy. i know how much she meant to u and now she means a lot to me.
so i will take ur place and give her more. give her ur piece of love too. =)

so.. u can enjoy ur days in heaven.

how i hoped it didn't end.
but now tt it did. i shld execute my promise to myself.

sushi asked me to blog

2008-05-06T09:21:00.002+08:00

okie okie. i am here for sushi!
cos she said my last blog entry is b4 exams and exams has ended!!! HAHAS!
exactly a week ago... my exams ended alr! yay!
and i am been kept so occupied since my exams ended.

wed:
went east coast cycling with the girls followed by stayover at my place!
i drove all of them there and then cycle cycle cycle.. we decided to go changi airport T3 for dinner at POPEYES!
stupid east coast has no link to ecp changi. so we kinda made a big big u turn all the way to get there. HAHAS.

after cycling.. during stayover.. suddenly ALL OF US realised we are getting old. =X
muscle degeneration. cos we were all PARALYSED waist down. hahas. cannot walk properly. got WAI BA! hahas.
damn funny.
played mahjong and cards. watched tv till 2. headed bout to fetch my sis frm marina square and then macs supper b4 we headed to bed at bout 7? HAHAS!

thurs :
HALL 12 BBQ! yay
although was super cui and tired frm the whole stayover thingy.
but still had energy for the bbq.
the bbq was FULL OF HOTDOGS AND SAUSAGES. ate till i was darn darn full and then headed home. HAHAS.
wanted to play mj. but no timeeee. hees.

fri :
wad did i do? I FORGOT. hahas
shld be snooker ba. if i am not wrong.
=)

and alien.. if ur reading this. i have not forgot bout our movie date. =)
i'm waiting!

往前

2008-04-28T15:03:00.002+08:00

在生命里，我们只能往前走。
不要原地踏步，最好，不要往后走。=)

was taking a break frm my studying by watching tv and got this phrase from a drama serial.
found it to be quite meaningful! hees.

i am A CHIM PERSON! lol!

and also CONGRATS TO KEE! i am waitingggg...

approaching the end

2008-04-27T21:43:00.002+08:00

yay! exams are ending! i am counting down. and counting down. and guess how many more days????

2 DAYS! woohoo! after this tues.. i am a FREE GIRL!
though i think i behave as if i am alr free these few days =)

kee kee came over to bo liao with me (actually to pei me study) this fri. and she is REALLY A ZAI NU! like wth. she can watch videos for the whole day as i studied!!!
and kee.. all the best for ur driving wor! ok? i duno wad day. but i'll pray for u for this week =)
so u owe me one if u pass ok? i wanna be the first passenger!

hmmmm... this week has been rather ok. quite enjoyable and DADDY'S HOME!
yay... though i lose my freedom of the car and everything. but he's back! hees. woohooo!!

and i shall have a lotta activitied planned after exams.
PPLE!!! DATE ME! wahahas.

2008-04-23T22:33:00.001+08:00

testing testing testing to see if i can see my blog! ARGH!
is my com breaking down?

back to blogging!

2008-04-18T14:43:00.003+08:00

mel mel is back to blog! have been very lazy to blog cos i have been VERY GUAI! cooping myself at home, studying myself to DEATH! hahas.
though i took frequent breaks and disturb pple like KEE KEE or KEL KEL =X all my bo liao frens. and also sneaking out to play snookier. (like ltr) OOPS!
i know i know it's the wrong thing to doooooo! but life isn't studying and studying only.

today's quite a slack day. it's like the day starteed off with a slacking mood.
my sis's not working today. ytd was her last day. so she asked me out to pool ltr. =X
and then yu xian asked me to snooker in the night. which i agreed to all! LOL.
SHIT SHIT SHIT. and i am studying now to make up for lost time =Xthough i am blogging. hees.

and my ah ma is here!!!! to cook TANG YUAN FOR ME! love love love my ah ma. hees.
she's like my pillar of support ever since mummy's gone and it's like she's putting all her love into us! THE KIDS! and it's just so LOVEY DOVEY! HAHAS.

and to end this super happy entry... I MISS U MUMMY! SEE U SOON

mel mel

2008-04-08T23:17:00.002+08:00

i am beginning to study.
tt's gd news.
tots in my heads are clearing up. or shld i say i am ignoring them.
now i just wan a gd slp. slp like there's no tmr! so i will wake up fresh and awake! and study like there's no tmr too! so everything will be fine. hahas!
but i have a 10.30 lesson tmr. difficult to slp like there's no tmr. and to the extent to how distracted i was today. did nt manage to study like there's no tmr too.
hahas. STUDY MEL MEL!!!!!!

-i hoped it was true. and it was referring to whomever i wished it was-

not meant to be understood.

2008-04-07T12:02:00.002+08:00

this entry is not meant to be understood cos i predicted it to be one without a proper topic even before blogging out my tots.
i have many things i wanna say, many things i wanna pen down and it is soooo messed up in me.
so yea.. if u understand it.. give credits to ur understanding of me. LOL and of cos.. ur wild imagination.

今天，我看清了两个人。
看清了自己，看清了你。
我在追求嗜好的当时，我忽略了朋友，家人，甚至学业。
最糟的是，是我心甘情愿的忽略他们。
总是找借口弥补错误。
我错了。

我非常非常的恶劣。
说变就变，搞得周围的人都团团转。
搞得自己不知所措。
心是烦的。脑是模糊的。
我，乱了。

and there i saw thru u.
though i shld have known earlier.
it wasn't more of the feeling of lost.
it is most of being insulted.
i hate being insulted, and u did a very very gd job *claps*
but it does not matter anymore
it is the process of learning and living. you've made me learn a lot.
thk u =)

how can sth so close turn out to be so awkward eventually?
how did i force someone out of my life and out of my circle.
how did i change so drastically towards one.
how did i no longer care bout someone overnight?
maybe as i saw thru other pple, u saw thru me.

i did the wrong thing regarding u.
as i reacted, u reflected.
i just have to say.. gd bye.. my fren.

thoughts

2008-04-05T17:19:00.002+08:00

laid down on my bed, thinking bout things.
maybe sometimes.. it isn't the world who is finding faults in us.
it is just that we are not gd enough.
but the pride is us just perceives that we are gd enough and it's the world that is too demanding.

maybe tt's the pride i just have to put down.
i put down my perception. and i looked at things.. just analysed wadever that happened.
i nvr tot of it cos i was quite sure of my own doing.
but when i put away everything, i see things in a different light.

harping on it does not show that u have forgotten bout it, or u regretted it.
it just shows how much u still HARP ON IT.
but i got it all straightened out! YAY! hahas. *claps*

hmmm... i duno how to pen down everything in my mind. but i think it's enough. hees.

and i duno wad to do about u.. though i know wad is the right thing to do. ARGH!
others see it as easy. i know it's easy. but it's difficult for me.
i dun understand how things turned out this way.

122

2008-04-03T21:14:00.002+08:00

i am BLOGGING! hahas.
yay! no more test for this week and till exams!
but i thnk i screwed today's test.
it is the classical example of... wad i study did not come out. and what i skipped ALL CAME OUT! wahahas. SUAY SUAY SUAY!
wad else can i say.

i had a dream this morning! HAHAS. a very weird dream.
bout singapore in war! =X and then i was hiding in hall. hahas.
a lot of things. cannot really rem and also lazy to blog bout it.
but it just made me think bout me, myself, all over again.

hmmm... have a phy tut to do for tmr lesson. but i think i also duno how to do. hais

hello pearlyn here!!! mel mel bully me!!!! help!!!!!

love

2008-03-28T23:25:00.002+08:00

love..is when i go home! and i see my daddy. kong knog and XIAO DI! hahas.
and all of them welcome me home with smiles!
then i know i am safe and sound. and that i am protected no matter wad.
and i can take life for granted for tt 2 days.
might sound negative when i say take life for granted.
but even though i spent almost 2 sems in hall alr, i still look forward to going home every weekend!
u can ask my roomie if u dun believe.
cos it's where i really feel...special! =)
where i can crap everything to my sis. tell my dad all my experiences. and teach my bro not to repeat my mistakes in studies and other areas. =)
and i can go on and on and on when i talk bout my fam . hees. SMILES!

but i also think love is when everything seems to be arranged.
and all u have to do is fall into it =)
wahahas. trying to be chim.
tt is love. it is the route u decided to avoid ;)

and i have new fave songs! hahas. bout li sheng jie new album today. hahas.
the album just made me feel like buying it.
first time i feel like buying the whole album for all it's songs. hees!!!

but i am broke. and at the same time HAPPY!
i hope my application for scholarship will get shortllisted. and hopefully.. i get it!
so i can lighten the financial burden.

mummy's gone = no dual income = must think more for the fam and do things THE RIGHT WAY!

these few days.. there are things on my mind. but i just cannot pin point wad it is.
maybe one day i'll know. or maybe i know, just tt i refuse to admit. =X

=) STUDY HARD EVERYONE! GET THE As!

7th month.

2008-03-25T17:10:00.003+08:00

March the 25th.
marks the 7th month that momo has been away from us.

hmmm... time really files. JUST LIKE TT! and it has been 7 mths since we have been adapting without her presence, her nagging and her love and concern.

7 mths w/o her has been ... how shld i put it ... she is just dearly missed.
YOU R DEARLY MISSED! U HEAR TT FROM ABOVE?

i hope there is internet connection up there! so she can read wadever tt i am typing over here. hahas!

things would have been different if u were here mummy.

7th month.

2008-03-25T17:10:00.000+08:00

...

2008-03-23T23:19:00.002+08:00

i realise my life is getting boring.
wanna blog but i find tt i have nth to blog.

i feel tt my life does not carry any excitement anymore.
nth more to anticipate nth more to live for. like... there's nth special bout it.

i am not doing enuff to make my life worth living.
this is not an emo entry. LOL. it's just tt my life is lacking sth.
lacking some TURNING POINT.

so tt i find new things in my life! so tt i have things to anticipate. =)
dun like my life to be so boring. yet i somehow enjoy it being boring.
i am a complete idiot.

i just wan sth. sth...

MAHJONG!

2008-03-21T01:14:00.002+08:00

yay! 2 happy things to blog bout. and 2 pissing things to blog bout. ARGH life is FAIR!

ok. first happy thing. MY HAMSTER IS FINE! yay!
though it costs a bomb. but at least i feel very relieved now!
it costs like 79 bucks! for one stupid hydrogen peroxide (which i can take from labs) and a tube of antibiotics. DIAO!
and consultation fee was like 54 BUCKS! when all the doc said was OH IT'S A CUT!
darn. waste my money. but i really love my hamster to not bother bout tt sum of PEANUTS! hahas!

2nd happy thing! GIRLS OUTING AT MY HSE!!! MAHJONG!
ok. this is wad happened. because of stupid DELAYS in the vet visit.
i did not attend any lectures at all. so my plans were like GONE.
and all i did today was went to ntu to fetch kel and sushi. drop piggy at tpy then pick kee up and all went to my hse.,
I WAS LIKE TAXI SERVICE CAN!
and then fetch sushi home! hees. i learnt a new route today! =) GLAD

okie. bad things. 1ST BAD THING!
STUPID VET VISIT WAS SO NOT PROFESSIONAL.
asked me to go at 10am. i went there, waited for 1 hr and they told me to come back 1-2hrs ltr.
so iwent home, took a nap and 1 hr ltr, called the vet.
and they said. "PLS COME BACK AT 3PM!"
like WTH! i have to wait one whole day for u and let all my plans so BWANG?!
sians lors. realy sians.

2nd bad thing.
i am just pissed.
i cannot believe how STUPID i WAS.
damn stupid.
the worst mistake i ever COMMITED. like DUMB.
i was BLINDDDD!!!. omfg.

okie. actually i have a 3rd GOOD thing to tip the balance.
have been playing pool with my sis these 2 days
my sis is reallu my BEST COMPANION! LOVES.
we are jsut getting along sooo well. i miss her! HAHAS(though she is just beside me =X)

觉得

2008-03-18T22:11:00.004+08:00

我觉得，生命中应该狠狠的爱一次
这样，回头看一看生命，至少曾经为爱付出过。

我觉得，生命中，应该只爱一次。
决定那一个人，就从此，心不变。

这是我理想的爱情
可是，我却犯下错误。
不能从来的错误。

爱情，错过，就很难从来。
错过，却又能从来，是机会，是缘分。

这是我错的地方。

爱过，所以知道，我不爱。

错了两次。
都是我。

第一次，不知道为何放弃。
第二次，根本就不可能，我却固执。

错了。真的错了。
后悔了。还有弥补的机会吗？

worried

2008-03-16T23:55:00.003+08:00

i am worried. SERIOUSLY worried bout one of my juniors.
this is wad happened.
i have 2 males and 1 female hamsters.
i have alr separated the female one, leaving the 2 males tog.
and so.. the 2 males turned into RIVALS!
somehow the big one dominated everything and started bullying the poor small one.
so now my small junior is injured and even has blood stains round the injury.
terrible isn't it?
my heart is aching for him =(

so.. i had no choice but to give one away to my cousin's gf.
so she bu de =(

but the main focus now is how i can treat my injured junior.
hope he gets well =( dun die again on me =(

and the worst thing is how EVERYONE SAID GOING TO A VET WAS A WASTE OF MONEY!
it is a life u know. and it is my JUNIOR'S life.
why is it so not impt to everyone?
they were like.. die then die lors. WTH!
i was in my own world after all of them said this phrase.
i just sayang my juniors and wash their cage and make it up to him =(

ok. hamster talk stops here.
end of weekend. WTH! i was supposed to be studing my hr from fri till today.
but i just started tonight at erm 9pm? and i studied only one chpt.
I AM SO DEAD!
i wanna pull up my gpa! but i am not doing anythinng to pull it up!
and i have presentation tmr. LOL.
i did the slides and declared it done. did not even rehearse. HOW PRO IS TT! =)

but this week shall be a gd week.
fri's gd fri. so one day off from sch
and mon's an off day for me cos i am not having presentation!
so another day off for me! WHICH MEANS I HAVE 4 DAYS WORTH OF HOLS!
woohooo!!!!
long weekend for me.
and wad a long entry today =X

bb! wish me luck!

thk u

2008-03-15T17:01:00.001+08:00

yay! it's sat! and i am slacking. have not touched my hr yet though my purpose of staying at home is to study hr!
ARGH ARGH! i need to study and not procrastinate. =(

hmmm... woke up at ard 11 and straight away prepared to go snooker zone meet yu xian
played till bout 3 sth and decided to come home =)

and now, here i am blogging. =X i shall study hr now!

meet up!

2008-03-13T23:23:00.002+08:00

mel mel is homeee! hees.
had a terrible with my dad's car today.
i have concluded tt his car DISLIKE ME! cos it always gives me trouble when the car key is with me
and it is PERFECTTT! whenever my dad is around.
I SUPER DUN UNDERSTAND! sobs.

lost confidence in my driving liao. =(

but sth made my day today!
meeting up with min! hees. talk bout things. share a lot =) and just meet up lors!
my 5 yrs gd fren! the one who is my INNER SELF as she self-proclaims. hees

and so.. being home on thurs means tttt... i PON tmr phy lecture OOPS.
but phy is really not my cup of tea.

"put ur heart into it"
"my heart is with someone... how to put?"
"=)"

appreciation nite...

2008-03-11T01:04:00.002+08:00

mel mel's current status is TIRED!

had appreciation night dinner at roland's cafe. somewhere at marine parade, near parkway parade.
ate a 8 course meal which was not very filling cos there were like 5 guys and 4 girls.
one serving for each person. HOW FULL COULD IT BE. hahas! but the food was nice. everyone agreed. so thks thks to our FOOD CRITIC - GG! hahas!

many awards given out. congrats to SANDAR and REGGIE! hahas. did us freshies proud.
but now i am tireddd. hahas and i am itching for snooker! cannot wait to train again!

and hopefully my nai nai's op go well tmr.
mummy, bless her k! =)

and hopefully my time management will be super gd tmr. hahas!
rushing here and there to visit my nai nai . =)

i miss mummy.
i miss daddy.
i dun really miss my mei mei who always BULLY me!
and my xiao di! BUT HE'S SO CUTE. hahas.

i miss my 3 hamsters! JUNIORS NO. 1,2,3!

i miss my ah ma. =(
i miss home cooked meals.
i miss slping at home.

i miss my frens. hahas. why am i suddenly so emo? HAHAS

i wanna go out HAVE FUN! GET HIGH!

幸福

2008-03-09T23:24:00.002+08:00

如果爱一个人，多辛苦都是幸福的。
如果不爱一个人，多幸福也是辛苦的。

爱或不爱，不需要想。
因为心知肚明。

回忆，有多开心，无。
它只停留在那时。

我只要享受现在！

weekends!

2008-03-08T00:21:00.000+08:00

yay! it is finally the weekends!
i have been LONGING to go home ever since recess week ended. hahas.
but my poor roomie has to stay back in hall for NTU open hse tmr. =(

but! she has her means of entertainment and it is our LATEST ADDICTION - WAHJONG!
hahas... reeally addiction lors. cannot stop playing. =X

all my tests over le. phy and maths test all over! YAY! freedom once again.
but one more mth to exams. must STUDY HARD! hahas. okok

JIA YOU EVERYONE!

boring. screwed!

2008-03-05T12:46:00.004+08:00

okok! i am back from my physics lecture! hees. and i screwed it terribly.
all duno how to do. all tikam.
dun even know which formula to use. dun even know where to start. hahas
i am SCREWED! and i realise my fingers are not really listening to me. cos i am typing a lotta typos as i blog this entry =X

and i realiseee... my blog is getting boring.
no pictures. hahas. and everyday blog bout hall life. hees. pai sehs..
cos my phone is being sent for HIGHER REPAIR. lols.
so no photos for the time being. (i hope they give me a new phone when they realise my phone is beyond repair!) wahahahas!!!

MATHS TEST TMR! JIA YOU PPLE

boring. screwed!

2008-03-05T12:46:00.001+08:00

lalala

2008-03-05T00:05:00.003+08:00

u know who i am closest to when all my convo on msn are kee kee, sushi and kel RIGHT NOW.
hahas. true tt the girls are closest to me and they are my BESTEST FRENS and best BO LIAO PARTNERS. =) yay. so glad i have them.

and so sad i have phy test tmr. hahas
i am in my own SELBY world while mugging for my phy. and it's getting nowhere.
my tactic for studying phy is just to memoris FORMULAE! and then when i see qns.. i just pluck in any formulae which i think is applicable. NVR ADOPT THIS STUDYING METHOD.

hahas. unless u are SUPER DESPERATE like me. =X

right choice made. =)

monday~~~~

2008-03-03T16:29:00.002+08:00

back to sch. back to ntu. back to 12. =)
back to normal life as b4 recess week.
and recess week officially ends. sadded. just as i was enjoying myself.
i have to return to school =(

returned to 12 at 7.30am this morning. =X
super early. so i continued my slp all the way till 12pm! HAHAS.
all the way till my dear roomie came back and woke me up =)
my roomie also bought subway for me cos i was super hungry and asked her to da bao breakfast for me. hees. XIE XIE ROOMIE!

and then went for communications class.
now back to 12. =)
ltr must do maths tut and study for maths and phy test. SHIT! XUE TE! hahas!!!
i cannot slp! i must STUDY! (got 0.8/2 for my maths quiz 3. super sad.)

2nd march

2008-03-02T17:52:00.002+08:00

shag shag shag. tired tired tired. hahas.
recess week is ending just like tt. sobs. sadded.
and wad have i acheived during this recess week?
more exp in playing pool comps. and just tt ba. LOL
no time to study at all.

so today.. finally.. i left some time aside to study for my oncoming tests.
physics test (i give up liao) on wed.
and maths test (struggling) on thurs.
and erm. i have one stupid maths tut on tues.

so must finish the tut so i can study for phy test on wed. hahas.
although study like nvr study like tt... hais. MY PHYSICS! i need a PHY GOD to appear in of me. =X

going back hall tmr. hall life all over again. hahas. fun fun fun. hahas.

p.s. i love my ah ma =)

the LEAP DAY of the LEAP YEAR!

2008-02-29T23:27:00.002+08:00

mel mel is back blogging again =)

today's the leap day! once in every 4 yrs.
another day means another day for me to survive without money
and another for me to survive not smsing. hahas

but today is rather well-spent to me.
went to repair my phone!
LIKE FINALLY!

but sth happened in the bishan carpark.
hahas. shall not bother to elaborate. damn guilty alr.

then went home b4 going out again to fetch my dad from work. =)
so u can guess tt i borrowed the car for the day to run all my errands.

then went to ikea with my dad and sis for some last min late night shopping
and home sweet home. shall do some studying ltr and over the weekends.

but tmr have to wake up early for job canvassing. ARGH!
mummy bless me!

happy 6th month.

2008-02-25T23:54:00.002+08:00

today's the day tt mark momo's death.
6mths since u have been gone.
every month i will rem this day.
25th is a day tt marks many things. so yupps.. this day is a bad day and also a gd day.

this day is the day we all lost u and we all cried over our lost.
but this day.. is the day u were freed of all ur pain and suffering, going to a place no one could imagine - paradise. =)
from this day onwards, momo is no longer ard physically.
but u are ard i know. in my dreams and everywhere i go.
u heard me right? i know.

so i hope u are happy up there cos we are! u can see =)
but pls take care of the man u loved while u were ard. and still love now.
cos he's trying hard. to be the man of the fam, to make decisions and to handle us like nvr b4.
but he needs company, he needs love and he needs ur support.

so.. yar. momo. dun leave us first. stay ard longer.
i can still rem ur last "happy birthday" to me =)

time

2008-02-20T00:05:00.002+08:00

was talking to kel today during HRM break and i rem telling her...
KELLY!! my life isn't my life anymore. it has been dominated by many pple. hahas

and so i tot bout it.. my life not my life anymore...
why shld i let others dominate my life when it's mine? =)
i let others dominate my life cos i wanna give them my time. i wanna spend time with them,
but sharing time btw so many pple tt are impt to me has made my life not to be mine. hahas.

finally today i have some time to myself. like now. =)
studying my biochem in the room alone while my busy roomie is going ard hall to sell civ shirts. hahas.
and then u start to think again. how long haven i been so alone in the room?
how long haven i felt like tonight. hahas.
and then it feels different. feels like wad i wan it to be, but feels different.

some things shld be natural.
cos i find the tendency to think. in your place.
dun really know how to articulate my thoughts. hahas. but nvm. does not really matter.

因为短暂，所以记忆是完美的。

我的不能说的秘密。

stress stress stress

2008-02-17T13:22:00.001+08:00

stress level is kinda high for me now...
stress stress stress...

have got a resume to hand in for communications assignment which is due TMR!
have got a biochem test on thurs i think. in which the content is like my ORG CHEM LAST SEM! to pple whom knew how i struggled thrtu my org chem, u will know how torturous is this to me. =)
and then.. maths tut and maths quiz on tues which erm.. i have no clue on topics being tested.
i am so SCREWED! hahas.

sian sian sian...

irritated

2008-02-16T17:20:00.000+08:00

wth! i am super irritated with the small kids in my hse.
SUPER UPER DUPER IRRITATING.

they AUTOMATICALLY opened up my HAMSTER CAGE!
took out my little juniors and started TORTURING THEM! like wtf.

i had to intercept so many times to save my juniors but they keep taking them out!!!
argh argh argh.. feel like keeping my hamsters away.

my hamsters are dyinggg.. cannot wait for them to GET LOST.so my hamsters can have their life back.

ARGH
get off

2008-02-15T01:42:00.002+08:00

i am very lazy to have headers for the pictures. but above is my dear ben! my mr. valentine.
erm... my flowers. (24 orange and 3 white)
his bed full of loving balloons, the roses he bought and porcupine. hahas.
and finally. on his table is our candlelight! HAHAS.

so for him... i must thk him. =) for giving me such a sweet and romantic valentine. hees.

thk u dear. =) wahahas

and p.s. i love u was the FIRST DECENT MOVIE WE WATCH! and it was super nice!!
go watch go watch! HEES..

happy v day!

happy birthday daddy!

2008-02-12T15:42:00.000+08:00

it's daddy's birthday today! hees.

and my dad is super cute. i smsed him this morning.

i said : happy birthday daddy! old alr, but still my cute papa.

and guess wad he said?

he replied : see you tonight.

LOL. my dad has NO SENSE OF HUMOUR at all. but tt's my daddy! =) hahas!

going out for dinner with him ltr to celebrate his b dae.

his first b dae since momo left us. so i know momo will join us tonight.

after dinner, might either be going back hall or home. see wad time it ends ba. =)

but for now. i have got a HR TEST AT 5.30! oh noooo... pia pia pia!

driving license

2008-02-10T00:01:00.000+08:00

YAY~~ mel mel kong finally obtained my PERSONAL DRIVING LICENSE!!!
woohooo!!! my ticket to freedom.. tt's wad they say. hahas.
but it's my ticket to being a driver i supposed! hees.
lucky day to take my driving test cos everyone's in a gd mood. hahas.
so naturally, it becomes easier for me to pass. =)

after tt... went to my dad's fren's hse for visiting b4 visiting momo! hees.

then meet dear and went to his hse.
went for dinner with his fam
changi beach.

and then home! =)

long day but sweet. =)

thk u dear

HAMMY JUNIORS!

2008-02-03T22:29:00.000+08:00

yay! i have 3 more babies to take care of.

hammy's gone but now!!! i have 3 hammy juniorS to take care of for the time being.

1 mth old baby hamsters.

2 male and 1 female. (pity the female)

and they are SUPER DUPER CUTEEEE!

u guys will nvr know how cute they are.

so i must have EVIDENCE! show u guys pictures!!!

aren't they super cute?

hahas.. i hope i can keep ALL OF THEM! but it is kinda time consuming. SOBS

1st feb

2008-02-02T11:29:00.001+08:00

ytd was a GREATTT DAY! despite the fact tt i failed my driving. hahas.
it was a suay case for me. hate my tester. HAHAS!

but besides tt.
i think ytd was fantastic!

went to my ah ma hse after driving.
companied her and slpt at her hse like after sooooo long.
still feels so comfortable
then ate lunch at her hse b4 heading off to tpy to meet tu di for snooker!

hees.. tu di.. no worries ya..
not only ur fault. i was not potting well too! HAHAS.maybe too tired for u le. yupps.

after tt... RUSHED off to vch to meet sushi, kee kee and kel for elmo's concert.
i RUSHED because SOMEONE.. arhem!! was late. hahas.
so we did mad rush to vch.

after concert, ate supper at xin wang.
went home with dear to collect his car b4 he gave me a lift home.
hahas. and then i shall not elaborate =)

BYE PPLE! hahas

driving!

2008-01-31T22:59:00.001+08:00

pple.. BLESS ME!

esp mummy up there.
bless me for all the mistakes i made today.
bless me so tt i can be super observant tmr.
bless me so tt i can rem everything tt i have been taught.
bless me so tt nth will go wrong tmr.
AND TT I WILL PASS!

i have faith in myself.
i have faith in mum.

as always.

ah ma

2008-01-30T14:02:00.000+08:00

ah ma just called me from home.
suddenly i realised.. i have neglected my dearest ah ma while i was busy with my own life.
so much for missing momo, i forgot to cherish pple ard me who are still ard, and caring for me.

promised her i will take care of ah ma.
i will do it!

momo

2008-01-29T22:46:00.000+08:00

momo! i know u're happy up there cos of my dream this morning
i know u're overlooking me.
i know everything will be fine.
i know u love and loved me.
i know u know i have nvr forgotten u.
i know u know i love u.
cos i really do.

u know how much i wanna hug and kiss u and say MOMO again.
let me do it in my dreams.

love u.

mummy

2008-01-28T15:46:00.000+08:00

momo's gone for 5 mths and 3 days.
sorry momo.. i did not blog on ur 5th mth cos i was too busy.
i wanted to blog but i duno why i did not eventually.
not tt i forgot bout momo. i know u know =)

nowadays i have a very funny habit.
i talk to nth. i speak to nth.
as if speaking to her. and somehow.. i always get an ans.
was tt u answering all my prayers?

I look into the sky and wonder how r u doing
and if u are looking back, smiling, knowing tt ur girl is doing fine.

momo.. bless me for my driving.
u were a terrible driver! HAHAS. but u know i will do fine. =)

my life

2008-01-24T22:14:00.000+08:00

hmmmm... my life so far is bf,fam,frens,hall and studies! HAHAS. a lot of things cram into my life.

i need good time management. and i am SERIOUS. hahas.

but nvm. i'll learn soon. hees. my blog is getting boringgg.. so might as well put up some pics. hahas.

ENTERTAINMENT!

first is my AUNTIE'S WEDDING! hahas. my fam photo! dun we all look gd as a fam?

and then donuts from dear!

and then our photo! hees. looks like i bought it for him instead =X

lastly, our night at ADM last night. hahas. stars, full moon and him. =)

2008-01-23T23:21:00.000+08:00

yozzzz... super long nvr blog le. hahas
dun feel like blogging these days anyway.
kinda busy
cos i am pia-ing my GOLDEN PATH! whahahahas. LI NANXING!!!=)

yupps.. currently at episode 26 alr! APPROACHING LAST EPISODE!
though everyone tells me the ending is stupid and my li nanxing dies. =(
but nvm.. hahas.i'll still watch.

=) dear gave me a surprise. HAHAS.
gan dong gan dong.
but the donuts are still left untouched. =X oops. hahas.

went to support hall olympiad earlier on...
hall 12 did not win, but they did their best.
HALL 12 STILL ROCKS! wahahas!!!!

hmmmm.. wad else to say..
must brush up on tuts alr. cannot keep having GPA of 3. sth. hahas. LOUSYYYYY
jia you mel mel =)

付出，还是负荷？

责任

2008-01-18T10:53:00.000+08:00

时间是自己分配的
人要自己珍惜。

说的出，却做不到

突然，好想妈妈。
身为老大，却把责任推给妹妹。
身为老大，却最像个小孩。

我也很想成熟。
但我做不到。
妹妹却做得到。

说实话，我很讨厌自己。

clean rm day

2008-01-16T00:19:00.000+08:00

today is one tiring dayy...
though it is my FREE-EST day of the week. hahas.
ended sch at 9.30am lehs~~~ only one lesson from 8.30-9.30
and my day ended there. hahas.

in the afternoon, went to my dear rm to help him clean his rm.
HAHAS. i am free labour. =X
but he was doing most of the cleaning cos i was erm... slacking? hahas.

after tt he gave me a ride to pz to meet my aunt and sis to do some shopping for her wedding.
and now i am home sweet home! =)

wahahahas. i love home!!!

=)

2008-01-14T12:34:00.000+08:00

it's been a busy week for me.

first date out with ben OUT OF SCH. hahas.
and it worked out rather well i must say. hahas.
although a bit of rush hr in the end.
and the movie linger a bit disapponting. hahas.
but still, we watched it together. HAHAS

and sun was momo's b dae.
went to visit her and it was a long day.
i must say i miss momo.

so i shall say it here. hahas HAPPY 50TH BIRTHDAY MOMO. hahas *hugs and kisses*
=)

hmmmm.. sch's officially started for me.
tuts and lectures.
OH MY!!!
cannot wait for fri.. DADDY'S COMMING BACK!
and sat's my AUNTIE'S wedding! HAHAS.

lalala... hope this week ends quick. =)

blog blog blog.

2008-01-10T13:42:00.000+08:00

long time nvr blog liao.
tt's life back in hall. hahas.
quite busy. and even if i have nth to do, i prefer to slp! HAHAS.
so nvr blog lors...

these few days quite funn.
ytd went out with the girls
supposedly for a movie but ended up just a simple dinner at nydc.
some shopping and then for me, is home sweet home.

and then.. supposed to go back sch this morning.
but my dad's car no more batt..
so i took a cab to sch instead.
DAMN EX. 35% surcharge.
hello.. i am just a student. dun be so evil to be can. =(

and we're a crappy couple. HAHAS

-

2008-01-08T22:33:00.000+08:00

back to hall for first time 2008. =)
cleaned my room.
got interrogated by GAREEN AND GANG.
they are scary. hahas.

then slpt for a while b4 piggy came back from her swim.
bathed and then piggy went for her HR lecture.

then companied him for dinner. =)
b4 he went home as piggy came back.
ate macs with piggy eventually. oops!!

and now i am slacking in hall. hahas.
all the time to myself =)

and so.. i hope it works out beautifully. =)

bo liao

2008-01-06T23:05:00.000+08:00

tired.
one whole day out with my dad today, shopping for furniture.

went out in the morning at 10.45.
went to tpy to have macs breakfast.
have my dad's passport photo taken and shop ard for mattress and some other things. LOL.
and HE TOOK SUCH A LONG TIME!
my dad is worst than a female shopper i can tell u.
even i cannot stand him!!! but then.. i am not really a normal female shopper. HAHAS
all my shopping genes have been taken by my dad. =X

after tpy, went home and my dad asked me to teach my bro ADD MATHS!
like how long haven i touched add maths?
so i taught him and then when he was attempting qns, i fell aslp. =X
thks to my rusty brain.

teach him liao.. my dad GO OUT AGAIN.
went to imm cos he wan to continue looking at FURNITURE. diao..
and then we went ard the whole imm looking at SOFAS.
so tiring u know. hahas.

ehhh

2008-01-04T21:34:00.000+08:00

ok.. finally blogging.HAHAS. 4th jan.
bout 3 days nvr blog liao.
not i dun wan blog, but i duno wad to blog. hahas

life is kinda weird.
when u dun have sth, u wish and PRAY for it.
and when u get it, u get so confused and u duno wad to do.
maybe it's only my case. LOL
i think i am abnormal. SUPER ABNORMAL.

let's hope things dun get worst from this day on. =X

2008

2008-01-01T21:58:00.000+08:00

2008 is HERE!
spent the last hr and the first hr of 2007 and 2008 with tu tu, kel, ben, ben's cousin and ben's cousin's fren.
lols.. kinda complicated.

was supposed to be a stayover with kee, kel and tu tu.
but then we went to watch fireworks instead. while kee went for her chalet.

spent my new yr differently this yr.
which makes me believe 2008 wil be GREAT. hahas
took ben's car and we went to indoor stadium for fireworks.
went to sentosa for a few drinks and to chill out.
then to mt. faber to see the CITY VIEW.
b4 going to east coast for MORNING BREAKFAST at 6am. hahas.
and then finally HOME SWEET HOME TO SLP.

long day ytd.
nvr stayed out for sooo long n4.
was definitely an exp. =)

hmmm.. 2008.
new yr
new life
new exp
definitely new resolutions.

this time, i wan gd grades which i dependent on myself.
so i shld hope for self disciplined.
and then.. hahas.. another bu neng shuo de mi mi =)